I know I'm not the best girl friend in the world.
I know I've not been a perfect mate for you.
I know I've not met your expectation.
I know I'll not be the one for you anymore.
I thought you said I'm your first and your last.
I thought you said you love me dearly.
I thought you said you want me to go through life with you.
I thought you said we are going to work things out.
I thought our relationship were stable.
I thought we'll definitely walk hand in hand til the end.
I recognize you as my husband and the one who I want to go through my life with.
I've dreams and plans about our future, our marriage and our family.
Last few months I've been so certain about our relationship.
I've been telling others how great you are and how loving we are.
But things just change in a blink of an eye.
Five years of relationship ended just like this.
I might not understand why and what wrong did I done.
I dislike changes as you knew.
But I've to accept the fact that your love and feeling towards me have changed.
And now my life and my world had to be changed too.
Thanks for your care and love for this 5 years.
Thanks for being a great companion to me.
Thanks for going through thick and thin with me.
Thanks for making a point to tell me straight what's in your mind.
Wish that you'll get to study hard and finish your course with great result.
Wish that you'll do what you are happy doing.
Wish that you'll continue to walk closely with God.
Wish that you'll be happy to be with her.
Congratulations to you that you have found your love one there and hope you will appreciate her.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Monday, July 10, 2006
World Cup Final
Last night (or should I say this morning?) World Cup Final Italy vs France. I supported Italy and .....hahaha.... Italy won!!! Yeah!!!!
I knew Upper Penang Road has this street party but I don't know anyone who will like to watch it there. Not my classmates of course, as they(not they, we.. ;p) have classes from 8.30am. So most of them will not want to stay up late to watch football. So I dare not say anything and just let the 1 in 4 years opportunity fly away.
Until Yao Tung called me in the afternoon and asked whether I'll like to go and watch together... wow~~ I'm so happy and excited at that moment... haha... at last someone wants to watch there too... So Wei Nien, Han Chern, Yao Tung and some other friends (9 of us) meet there at 12am. I parked my car in Yao Tung's house and tumpang his car... lazy to find parking... hehe...
We reached there, met up all 9 of us, can't find a place to sit in Sega Fredo. That place was really crowded. Many people drew the flag of the country that they support on their face, but can't really differenciate it as both the Italy's and France's flag are quite the same, just the different of green and blue colour. Anyway, the main point is a lot of leng chai and leng lui.... hehe...
They were some performance on the stage before the match starts. The MC was very hilarious... he's a guy but in a girl's body.... wearing a sexy short mini skirt, very lemak and "hiao" but it really makes the environment very lively and happenning...
Then our Penang Chief Minister Khor Tzu Koon went on the stage to address his speech. Once he said "Thank God for the nice weather..." the rain starts pouring... haha... then we have to move inside the building and everyone started to cabut... they even take down the big screen already. Really heavy rain....
It's only around 1am, we were quite hungry, nothing to eat there, so Han Chern, Yao Tung and I decided to go to the mamak stall at the next road to have something to eat before the match starts. The rain is so heavy that even though we are under the umbrella yet we were still wet....soaked... especially my shoes and socks... yiaaks....
We chat a lot in the mamak stall. Realized something fishy with Han Chern... haha... no offence... but the way he talks or rather the conversation with him is really funny... I can still laugh now when I think of it. I realize one thing about Han Chern, when he's up to something, he's really not good in hiding it, the "secret" will spill out without him noticing. Haha... anyway, this is a compliment ya!! That shows you are a very honest person and will only tell the truth, even if you are not telling the truth, people will know it EASILY. haha...
After makan, we ran back to the pub (is that a pub? I'm not sure. Doesn't seems like a pub to me.). The match starts right when we sit down. Some of us support Italy and some France. I enjoyed watching football with friends rather than staying alone at home to watch. At least someone to share my thoughts with. But I'm quite uncomfortable sitting there. It's very cold. My back, my pants and my shoes and socks are wet, the air-cond is facing me. My body is shivering. So cold.................................
Finally, it's a draw between the 2 countries. Penalties.... So "gan chiong"... as Italy has never won a penalty before....but wahahahaha....Italy won 5 v 3. Hahaha.....so happy....especially when many people cheer together when they score a goal... That kind of feeling...once in a lifetime....
Then we ran back to the car, still raining... I wonder whether they hire a "weather consultant" this time??? Anyway, wet again....
When I reached Yao Tung's house, something wrong with my car remote. I have to use remote to open my car door, but it can't work. The alarm keep making loud noice and it's already 5am. We were so afraid that it will wake the whole neighbourhood and I'm really so pai seh.... After some trying... still cannot...No choice, have to trouble Yao Tung to fetch me to my friend's place. Have to wake my friend in the middle of the night to let me in for the night... I'm so glad that I have a bunch of really nice and sweet friends...
When I reached my friend's house, it's almost 5.30am already. My mind was still active... can't rest, so can't sleep. Until this morning have to attend 8.30am til 1.15pm class. So sleepy, my body was sleeping, left my eyes wide open, my mind can't function, it's blank. Now after class, had my lunch, still can't go back to take a nap like what I have planned as I have to wait for my dad to bring me the extra spare remote and get my car. I'm back in library now but of course I can't study, can't even focus, it's only black wording on white papers. But computer, online and blogging---different story...hehe...
Hope that my dad will come soon so that after I got my car, I can still take a short nap so that tonight my first day of work, I'll not perform too badly. I'm quite looking forward to this new job, although dead tired.... Have to work til 10.30pm then only will get to rest PROPERLY.
Thanks for inviting me to watch football together, I really enjoyed it very very much....
I knew Upper Penang Road has this street party but I don't know anyone who will like to watch it there. Not my classmates of course, as they(not they, we.. ;p) have classes from 8.30am. So most of them will not want to stay up late to watch football. So I dare not say anything and just let the 1 in 4 years opportunity fly away.
Until Yao Tung called me in the afternoon and asked whether I'll like to go and watch together... wow~~ I'm so happy and excited at that moment... haha... at last someone wants to watch there too... So Wei Nien, Han Chern, Yao Tung and some other friends (9 of us) meet there at 12am. I parked my car in Yao Tung's house and tumpang his car... lazy to find parking... hehe...
We reached there, met up all 9 of us, can't find a place to sit in Sega Fredo. That place was really crowded. Many people drew the flag of the country that they support on their face, but can't really differenciate it as both the Italy's and France's flag are quite the same, just the different of green and blue colour. Anyway, the main point is a lot of leng chai and leng lui.... hehe...
They were some performance on the stage before the match starts. The MC was very hilarious... he's a guy but in a girl's body.... wearing a sexy short mini skirt, very lemak and "hiao" but it really makes the environment very lively and happenning...
Then our Penang Chief Minister Khor Tzu Koon went on the stage to address his speech. Once he said "Thank God for the nice weather..." the rain starts pouring... haha... then we have to move inside the building and everyone started to cabut... they even take down the big screen already. Really heavy rain....
It's only around 1am, we were quite hungry, nothing to eat there, so Han Chern, Yao Tung and I decided to go to the mamak stall at the next road to have something to eat before the match starts. The rain is so heavy that even though we are under the umbrella yet we were still wet....soaked... especially my shoes and socks... yiaaks....
We chat a lot in the mamak stall. Realized something fishy with Han Chern... haha... no offence... but the way he talks or rather the conversation with him is really funny... I can still laugh now when I think of it. I realize one thing about Han Chern, when he's up to something, he's really not good in hiding it, the "secret" will spill out without him noticing. Haha... anyway, this is a compliment ya!! That shows you are a very honest person and will only tell the truth, even if you are not telling the truth, people will know it EASILY. haha...
After makan, we ran back to the pub (is that a pub? I'm not sure. Doesn't seems like a pub to me.). The match starts right when we sit down. Some of us support Italy and some France. I enjoyed watching football with friends rather than staying alone at home to watch. At least someone to share my thoughts with. But I'm quite uncomfortable sitting there. It's very cold. My back, my pants and my shoes and socks are wet, the air-cond is facing me. My body is shivering. So cold.................................
Finally, it's a draw between the 2 countries. Penalties.... So "gan chiong"... as Italy has never won a penalty before....but wahahahaha....Italy won 5 v 3. Hahaha.....so happy....especially when many people cheer together when they score a goal... That kind of feeling...once in a lifetime....
Then we ran back to the car, still raining... I wonder whether they hire a "weather consultant" this time??? Anyway, wet again....
When I reached Yao Tung's house, something wrong with my car remote. I have to use remote to open my car door, but it can't work. The alarm keep making loud noice and it's already 5am. We were so afraid that it will wake the whole neighbourhood and I'm really so pai seh.... After some trying... still cannot...No choice, have to trouble Yao Tung to fetch me to my friend's place. Have to wake my friend in the middle of the night to let me in for the night... I'm so glad that I have a bunch of really nice and sweet friends...
When I reached my friend's house, it's almost 5.30am already. My mind was still active... can't rest, so can't sleep. Until this morning have to attend 8.30am til 1.15pm class. So sleepy, my body was sleeping, left my eyes wide open, my mind can't function, it's blank. Now after class, had my lunch, still can't go back to take a nap like what I have planned as I have to wait for my dad to bring me the extra spare remote and get my car. I'm back in library now but of course I can't study, can't even focus, it's only black wording on white papers. But computer, online and blogging---different story...hehe...
Hope that my dad will come soon so that after I got my car, I can still take a short nap so that tonight my first day of work, I'll not perform too badly. I'm quite looking forward to this new job, although dead tired.... Have to work til 10.30pm then only will get to rest PROPERLY.
Thanks for inviting me to watch football together, I really enjoyed it very very much....
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
The most Romantic Birthday I ever had
Today is my birthday. Nobody seems to say anything. Even when I'm in college, my classmates didn't even tell me whether tonight they will celebrate with me or not. I have no clues at all, where to go, who will be going, what are we going to do....????
In the evening, Yueh Ching ask me to fetch her to the Naza Beach. I still don't know what they are up to. I wonder why they don't want to go for dinner first but rather come to the beach first. I'm quite hungry actually.
Then later Juan See, Pek Imm, Hui Chuan and Kok Keng arrived. So sweet of them that they actually cooked me dinner. Juan See cookedhe special recipe spaghetti that I taught her last time for me. It's nice. Pek Imm cooked some nuggets and french fries. Hooi Chuan bought me my favorite drink -- the apple juice with aloe vera. I only told them once that the drink taste nice and I love it, they actually remembered it and buy it for me. I'm so touched.
We ate and we chat. We played games while waiting for Jason and Ying Wei. Around 9pm, all arrived. They FORCED me to sit at a corner ALONE ...sob sob... and all of them ran to a far corner to do something. I have no idea what they are up to at all. They never mentioned anything to me. I sat there alone, nothing to do, mind start flashing back a lot of memories.
I supposed to celebrate my birthday in Australia this year. We have been planning for that for so long and I really look forward to it. This is the first time I celebrate my birthday without Steven by my side since 2001. Sad...
After about 20minutes, they asked me to close my eyes and follow them to that corner. I listened to them and obeyed their instructions. Close my eyes and let them bring me to the place. Once I opened my eyes, I was stunned, speechless, can't believe what's in front of my eyes. Kok Keng actually used the wyre to bend my name -big letter word AMY and make it 3D, stick some colour paper on it and put candles underneath so it's so beautiful, my names shining. Then they brought out the cake, they know my favourite cake -- Chocolate Mint cake. They put 22 candles on it and it filled the whole surface of the cakes. That's not the end yet, they even bought me a rose. So sweet of them... I almost cry.... They sang and as usual, push my face into the cake, but just a bit to get some cream on my nose to take a silly picture of me.
I was really so touched. Cooked me dinner, favourite drink, candles underneath my name, favourite cake and rose. It's really a surprise for me...
I never thought that I'll have such a romantic birthday celebration in my life. The most romantic birthday in my life... I started to feel guilty. I wanted to say sorry to them but I didn't. Sorry because all these while I thought romantic is equivalent to boyfriend or husband, I never thought the romance from friendship can be such great and awesome. Sorry for didn't expect you guys will do this for me, I thought we'll just have a simple dinner somewhere and that's it. Really sorry for underestimate how great you guys are. My tears start rolling down now when I think of it. I wished I said sorry to you all. Ended up, I can only say thank you.
Really thank you so much for this memorable moment in my life, I'll never forget this, I promised. But most importantly, I'll never forget the friendship and love you guys showed to me. Now I realized, how important and significant friends are, especially you. Sorry if I have not been that caring, I learnt and realized what can friendship do. It's so powerful. I believe and I dare to say this loud, even if I'm in Australia with someone I thought I love, I'll never have such romantic moment and great moment in my life.
Juan See, Pek Imm, Ying Wei, Yueh Ching, Kok Keng, Jessie & Jason, thanks... you really brighten up my life and open my eyes to realize how powerful friendship can be. You are really superb!!!
In the evening, Yueh Ching ask me to fetch her to the Naza Beach. I still don't know what they are up to. I wonder why they don't want to go for dinner first but rather come to the beach first. I'm quite hungry actually.
Then later Juan See, Pek Imm, Hui Chuan and Kok Keng arrived. So sweet of them that they actually cooked me dinner. Juan See cookedhe special recipe spaghetti that I taught her last time for me. It's nice. Pek Imm cooked some nuggets and french fries. Hooi Chuan bought me my favorite drink -- the apple juice with aloe vera. I only told them once that the drink taste nice and I love it, they actually remembered it and buy it for me. I'm so touched.
We ate and we chat. We played games while waiting for Jason and Ying Wei. Around 9pm, all arrived. They FORCED me to sit at a corner ALONE ...sob sob... and all of them ran to a far corner to do something. I have no idea what they are up to at all. They never mentioned anything to me. I sat there alone, nothing to do, mind start flashing back a lot of memories.
I supposed to celebrate my birthday in Australia this year. We have been planning for that for so long and I really look forward to it. This is the first time I celebrate my birthday without Steven by my side since 2001. Sad...
After about 20minutes, they asked me to close my eyes and follow them to that corner. I listened to them and obeyed their instructions. Close my eyes and let them bring me to the place. Once I opened my eyes, I was stunned, speechless, can't believe what's in front of my eyes. Kok Keng actually used the wyre to bend my name -big letter word AMY and make it 3D, stick some colour paper on it and put candles underneath so it's so beautiful, my names shining. Then they brought out the cake, they know my favourite cake -- Chocolate Mint cake. They put 22 candles on it and it filled the whole surface of the cakes. That's not the end yet, they even bought me a rose. So sweet of them... I almost cry.... They sang and as usual, push my face into the cake, but just a bit to get some cream on my nose to take a silly picture of me.
I was really so touched. Cooked me dinner, favourite drink, candles underneath my name, favourite cake and rose. It's really a surprise for me...
I never thought that I'll have such a romantic birthday celebration in my life. The most romantic birthday in my life... I started to feel guilty. I wanted to say sorry to them but I didn't. Sorry because all these while I thought romantic is equivalent to boyfriend or husband, I never thought the romance from friendship can be such great and awesome. Sorry for didn't expect you guys will do this for me, I thought we'll just have a simple dinner somewhere and that's it. Really sorry for underestimate how great you guys are. My tears start rolling down now when I think of it. I wished I said sorry to you all. Ended up, I can only say thank you.
Really thank you so much for this memorable moment in my life, I'll never forget this, I promised. But most importantly, I'll never forget the friendship and love you guys showed to me. Now I realized, how important and significant friends are, especially you. Sorry if I have not been that caring, I learnt and realized what can friendship do. It's so powerful. I believe and I dare to say this loud, even if I'm in Australia with someone I thought I love, I'll never have such romantic moment and great moment in my life.
Juan See, Pek Imm, Ying Wei, Yueh Ching, Kok Keng, Jessie & Jason, thanks... you really brighten up my life and open my eyes to realize how powerful friendship can be. You are really superb!!!
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