This weekend was a great one.
I managed to meet up with quite a lot of my friends and had a great time together.
I took Air Asia back to Penang. Dad, Mum and Sis picked me up from the airport.
We went for our favourite Ice Blended Peanut Butter in Seberang Jaya.
My mum, my sis and I went for a hair cut in AX.
It only cost me RM10 to cut my hair. I can never get this price in PJ, even if I can, I will not look nice. I paid for all 3 of us and it's only RM38 (I washed my hair too). If I were to cut my hair in PJ, it'll cost me RM38 for 1 head. Now RM38 for 3 heads. :-)
My whole family except my bro Alvin went for Clement's wedding.
Clement has been a very close friend to me.
We worked very hard together when we were to form Bagan Ajam Toastmasters Club. He has really mentored me a lot and gave me lots of learning opportunities. I'm really grateful that I'm part of his Super 18 team.
Now he's married, happy for him as I know this is what he wanted for very loooooong already.
I didn't sit with my family but sat with my ClaPEJ gang members.
There were a lot of Toastmasters who attended this wedding. Many of them has not seen me for more than a year. The first comment they gave was... I gain weight!!! sob...sob... :-(
After the wedding, the usual gang went out for a gathering. It has been a long while since we all met up. This time, almost everyone was there, except for Johnson and Clement. Lilian, Peng Yew, Ee Liang, Christopher, Siti, Nazir, Jessica, Pala and myself. We went to E-gate Starbucks. We chat, exchange news and laughed a lot. It's really nice to hang out with them.
We don't talk about football, we don't talk about politics, we don't talk about computer games, we just share with everyone our latest status and what happened in our lives. We care and encourage one another. It's just so nice. :-) I really miss this.
Next day, I went to church and share with the youth some of my thoughts and hope that it'll encourage them as well.
After the formal meeting, few of us just stayed back and sang songs.
Jonathan, Naomi, Eunice, Sherlynn, Shin Yi, Ann, Andrew and myself.
We always like to do so. Just sing our heart out and sing whatever songs that came up to our mind.
After that, we took lots of pictures, funny pictures. That's one of our usual thing when we get to meet up. It's not easy to get pictures together ever since most of us left Butterworth.
We went for lunch together in my favourite yam rice place.
It has been a long while we get to hang out together too. It'll be more perfect if LynnSay and Andrew Low were around.
After that, we went to Swenson. We chat and laughed a lot too. I can just be myself.
I went back home and took a nap.
My family went for dinner in my grandma's house. My grandma asked me what I want to eat and she'll cook for me. I didn't want her to be too tired as I know she's not feeling well, so I just asked her for the "bi koh moi", it tastes so so so nice. It's just different from everywhere else.
My flight was delayed. Only reached PJ around 12.15am.
That's my weekend back in Penang. Even though it's very short, it's just a weekend, but this time round, it seems so long. I managed to do quite a lot and really miss them a lot. :-)
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
Tired
Wednesday (16th April)
My aunt asked me to goover to her house.
My cousin sister has some questions to ask me.
No one else knows mandarin. My aunt can't help her in her mandarin homework.
I went, taught her how to write her mandarin essay.
Rushed back to Eugene's house around 7pm, packed 3 heavy big bags.
Carried it into my car, phew!!!
Drove to my new place, Kenny's house.
Carried those heavy bags out from my car and into the house, phew again!!!
Su was outside waiting for me, jumped into his car to bible study and prayer meeting.
After meeting, went to Maybank NL for supper.
I'm the only girl there.
I'm not in a good state, very emotional.
They asked me about my new place, I got irritated and sensitive over some small issues.
Signalled Su to fetch me home, I did something rude by just stood up and walked away.
Tired, emotionally.
Thursday (17th April)
After work,I went back to my new place to unpack.
Took out all the things in the bags and arranged it nicely.
Took a bath and drove back to Eugene's place with 3 empty bags.
Start packing again, this time only 2 heavy big bags and a pail full of stuff.
Cleaning up the room.
Carried those bags into the car, phew!!!
Very hungry.Felt like having Swenson for dinner and have some ice-cream.
Su, Liz and Tim were playing computer games.
Joseph was still in college busy.
JeeLeng was having dinner with May and rushing to fetch her brother.
Weng Soon was out with his family in Tesco.
Peng Chui had her dinner already and was busy.
Haih... It's ok. I can have it on my own.
I went in with a book. By the way, my friends couldn't believe that I went there ALONE!
Had smoked salmon pasta... yummy!
Had ice-cream, but the mint flavoured... yucky!
I drove back to my new place, carried those bags out from my car and into the house, phew again!!!
Unpacked all my things, took a bath and slept.
Friday (18th April)
I went to Joseph's house to use his computer and internet access.
Uploaded quite a number of photos in facebook.
Went to fetch Peng Chui and had dinner together.
It has been quite awhile we didn't catch up.
Drove back home, thought not going to AHF as Weng Soon mentioned that it's inconvenient for him to fetch me.
Got stuck at the roundabout while Weng Soon called to fetch me to AHF.
Rushed back home.
Jumped into his car and went to AHF.
After AHF, went home, bathed and slept.
Saturday (19th Sat)
After work, rushed home, Weng Soon was there waiting.
Took my things, jumped into his car.
Went to church to take cups.
Went for lunch with Mun Onn and Edwin in Jalan Ipoh.
Went up to PeaceHaven, Genting.
We reached late, the 1st session started.
Managed to talk to Frederick over a cup of noodle.
It's seriously not easy to get him sit down quietly.
Managed to talk to Denise, only realized that she's the CF President in her school
Managed to talk to Su Ming, but it's just a short one.
Was quite upset over someone, but everything was fine after that.
We talked about it and issue settled.
Sunday (20th April)
Had a chat with Hoonch.
It's an interesting conversation.
As usual, he asked me about relationship.
I was very honest with him.
I told him I do long to have someon, but there's just no one.
He said there are but I just didn't recognize those acts as sign!
He said I have to make a decision and give encouragement to that person after I have made the decision.
I don't have to take the first step but just to give encouragement, a green light for them!
Haha.... funny conversation but yet it makes me start thinking... hmm....
Went back to church. It's just so so funny to see Weng Soon ran so fast and thought Tim will be just right behind, but they actually didn't plan to back to church... hahaha...
Dad fetched me from church. So nice! First timeI can have my daddy to fetch me from church.
Went back to my new place with them. They were quite happy, kept saying that it's so much safer to stay with people.
They went back. I took a bath.
My new housemates whom I just got to know few minutes ago, was moving out that day.
She's lucky to have a boy friend to help her move.
She just need to sit in the room and pack her things into the boxes, while her boyfriend has to carry those big heavy boxes out and load it in the car.
She's so lucky!
I did all those by myself! Suddenly, feel so proud! Haha...
The feeling of not having to depend on others or trouble others is good.
I remember I used to rely on Steven a lot last time. Any small thing also I have to do it with him, and I can't do it by myself.
Now, I know I can do it, even without a boyfriend!!! (Err... not too sure whether this is a good thing or not...)
I drove to my aunt's house to meet my family.
Brought them to 1Utama, BBQ Plaza for dinner.
After that, my brother wants to go to KTZ for the Peanut Butter Soup.
I was so full. I can only sit there and looked at them eat.
He's still not satisfied after KTZ, we went to Paramount for another round of Tai Lok Mee.
He's really scary and crazy!!!
Tired...physically!
My aunt asked me to goover to her house.
My cousin sister has some questions to ask me.
No one else knows mandarin. My aunt can't help her in her mandarin homework.
I went, taught her how to write her mandarin essay.
Rushed back to Eugene's house around 7pm, packed 3 heavy big bags.
Carried it into my car, phew!!!
Drove to my new place, Kenny's house.
Carried those heavy bags out from my car and into the house, phew again!!!
Su was outside waiting for me, jumped into his car to bible study and prayer meeting.
After meeting, went to Maybank NL for supper.
I'm the only girl there.
I'm not in a good state, very emotional.
They asked me about my new place, I got irritated and sensitive over some small issues.
Signalled Su to fetch me home, I did something rude by just stood up and walked away.
Tired, emotionally.
Thursday (17th April)
After work,I went back to my new place to unpack.
Took out all the things in the bags and arranged it nicely.
Took a bath and drove back to Eugene's place with 3 empty bags.
Start packing again, this time only 2 heavy big bags and a pail full of stuff.
Cleaning up the room.
Carried those bags into the car, phew!!!
Very hungry.Felt like having Swenson for dinner and have some ice-cream.
Su, Liz and Tim were playing computer games.
Joseph was still in college busy.
JeeLeng was having dinner with May and rushing to fetch her brother.
Weng Soon was out with his family in Tesco.
Peng Chui had her dinner already and was busy.
Haih... It's ok. I can have it on my own.
I went in with a book. By the way, my friends couldn't believe that I went there ALONE!
Had smoked salmon pasta... yummy!
Had ice-cream, but the mint flavoured... yucky!
I drove back to my new place, carried those bags out from my car and into the house, phew again!!!
Unpacked all my things, took a bath and slept.
Friday (18th April)
I went to Joseph's house to use his computer and internet access.
Uploaded quite a number of photos in facebook.
Went to fetch Peng Chui and had dinner together.
It has been quite awhile we didn't catch up.
Drove back home, thought not going to AHF as Weng Soon mentioned that it's inconvenient for him to fetch me.
Got stuck at the roundabout while Weng Soon called to fetch me to AHF.
Rushed back home.
Jumped into his car and went to AHF.
After AHF, went home, bathed and slept.
Saturday (19th Sat)
After work, rushed home, Weng Soon was there waiting.
Took my things, jumped into his car.
Went to church to take cups.
Went for lunch with Mun Onn and Edwin in Jalan Ipoh.
Went up to PeaceHaven, Genting.
We reached late, the 1st session started.
Managed to talk to Frederick over a cup of noodle.
It's seriously not easy to get him sit down quietly.
Managed to talk to Denise, only realized that she's the CF President in her school
Managed to talk to Su Ming, but it's just a short one.
Was quite upset over someone, but everything was fine after that.
We talked about it and issue settled.
Sunday (20th April)
Had a chat with Hoonch.
It's an interesting conversation.
As usual, he asked me about relationship.
I was very honest with him.
I told him I do long to have someon, but there's just no one.
He said there are but I just didn't recognize those acts as sign!
He said I have to make a decision and give encouragement to that person after I have made the decision.
I don't have to take the first step but just to give encouragement, a green light for them!
Haha.... funny conversation but yet it makes me start thinking... hmm....
Went back to church. It's just so so funny to see Weng Soon ran so fast and thought Tim will be just right behind, but they actually didn't plan to back to church... hahaha...
Dad fetched me from church. So nice! First timeI can have my daddy to fetch me from church.
Went back to my new place with them. They were quite happy, kept saying that it's so much safer to stay with people.
They went back. I took a bath.
My new housemates whom I just got to know few minutes ago, was moving out that day.
She's lucky to have a boy friend to help her move.
She just need to sit in the room and pack her things into the boxes, while her boyfriend has to carry those big heavy boxes out and load it in the car.
She's so lucky!
I did all those by myself! Suddenly, feel so proud! Haha...
The feeling of not having to depend on others or trouble others is good.
I remember I used to rely on Steven a lot last time. Any small thing also I have to do it with him, and I can't do it by myself.
Now, I know I can do it, even without a boyfriend!!! (Err... not too sure whether this is a good thing or not...)
I drove to my aunt's house to meet my family.
Brought them to 1Utama, BBQ Plaza for dinner.
After that, my brother wants to go to KTZ for the Peanut Butter Soup.
I was so full. I can only sit there and looked at them eat.
He's still not satisfied after KTZ, we went to Paramount for another round of Tai Lok Mee.
He's really scary and crazy!!!
Tired...physically!
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
I'm just amazed!
I’m just amazed how God speaks to me.
Ever since the burglary incident, I have not really face my own emotion. I just choose to run away and not to think about it.
I keep telling myself I'm fine.
But yesterday, everything just burst out! All my mixed emotion!
I just put a sad face in my facebook status and 2 people sms and 1 wrote in my wall and ask whether I’m ok.
Jo spent his precious time to talk to me.
He’s really an angel from God.
And…this morning I read of this passage. (it’s so much related from what Jo said to me last night)
I’m just so amazed!
How can I not think that He’s a God who cares.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
"I’m learning that our ability to help others depends largely on what we’ve learned in the tough times of our lives. People are more likely to see God’s power working in our weakness than in our strength. The apostle Paul discovered this amidst his own struggle. He pleaded with God to remove some unidentified problem from his life, but he learned in the process that experiencing God’s strength in his weakness is what he really needed. This inner experience strengthened Paul at a level that he had not expected. But even though it worked for him, he wasn’t merely relying on his experience. His deeper confidence was in the historic resurrection of Christ from the dead. Paul was so convinced that our experience must rest in the truth that he wrote, “If Christ has not been raised, then our preachign is in vain and your faith is in vain… If in this life only we have hoped in Christ, we are of all people most to be pitied” (1 Corinthians 15:14,19). When it comes to having hope and confidence amidst our disappointment, what really help is to know the truth of who Christ is and what He has done for us." ~ quoted from Our Journey
Besides this, there are a few songs which I saved in my office pc 2 days before I lost my pen drive. I have been listening to it everyday repeat, repeat and repeat. But I have not noticed or paid attention on this particular song.
Yet, this morning when I played it, this song “God will Deliver” by Lee Williams Brothers, just strucked me.
I suddenly realized how wonderful the lyrics is, so I just on it louder and really listen to this songs.
~lyrics~
When you're burdened down and it seems like the weight of the world's on your shoulder,
don't despair, God really cares
When you've done your best and it seems like you've done nothing at all,
don't give up, God won't let you fall
When it seems like all hope is gone
Remember God is still on the throne
And He will deliver
On Time
On Time
When your bills are due and your money is gone, and it seems like you can't make it alone,
don't despair, cause God really cares
When you've done all that you can do and all your plans fail to go through,
don't give up, God is watching over you
When it seems like all hope is gone,
just remember, remember, remember,
God is still on the throne and he will deliver
On time
God will deliver
On time
Oh Oh Oh
God will deliver
Yes He will oh oh
God will deliver
Sure enough deliver
On time
God will deliver
God will deliver
He'll do it everytime
I just like to say to all the non-believers today.
If you have doubt in your mind that God will deliver,
go pick up a bible and read Daniel the 3rd chapter, 25th verse.
When he delivered Shadrach, Meshack and Abendego from the fiery furnace,
don't tell me God won't deliver.
If you don't believe, read John the 11th chapter, 43-44th verse
when he spoke to Lazarus and he stopped out from his grave.
Don't tell me God won't deliver.
You can read on a little further, Mark the 6th chapter, 38-44th verse.
When he took 2 little fish and 5 loaves of bread and fed 5,000
I know He will
I know He will
Yes He will
Yes He will
And those of you out there that's been down on your sick bed
and you know, you know, you know
God healed your body
You ought to be a witness right now that He will heal you,
He will heal you,
He will heal you
Oh oh God will deliver on time,
aint' no doubt in my mind
Yes He will
Yes He will
Yes He will
I've tried Him.
I know what I'm talking about.
Oh yeah, the Lord will deliver on time.
I’m amazed!
I’m just amazed!
Ever since the burglary incident, I have not really face my own emotion. I just choose to run away and not to think about it.
I keep telling myself I'm fine.
But yesterday, everything just burst out! All my mixed emotion!
I just put a sad face in my facebook status and 2 people sms and 1 wrote in my wall and ask whether I’m ok.
Jo spent his precious time to talk to me.
He’s really an angel from God.
And…this morning I read of this passage. (it’s so much related from what Jo said to me last night)
I’m just so amazed!
How can I not think that He’s a God who cares.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
"I’m learning that our ability to help others depends largely on what we’ve learned in the tough times of our lives. People are more likely to see God’s power working in our weakness than in our strength. The apostle Paul discovered this amidst his own struggle. He pleaded with God to remove some unidentified problem from his life, but he learned in the process that experiencing God’s strength in his weakness is what he really needed. This inner experience strengthened Paul at a level that he had not expected. But even though it worked for him, he wasn’t merely relying on his experience. His deeper confidence was in the historic resurrection of Christ from the dead. Paul was so convinced that our experience must rest in the truth that he wrote, “If Christ has not been raised, then our preachign is in vain and your faith is in vain… If in this life only we have hoped in Christ, we are of all people most to be pitied” (1 Corinthians 15:14,19). When it comes to having hope and confidence amidst our disappointment, what really help is to know the truth of who Christ is and what He has done for us." ~ quoted from Our Journey
Besides this, there are a few songs which I saved in my office pc 2 days before I lost my pen drive. I have been listening to it everyday repeat, repeat and repeat. But I have not noticed or paid attention on this particular song.
Yet, this morning when I played it, this song “God will Deliver” by Lee Williams Brothers, just strucked me.
I suddenly realized how wonderful the lyrics is, so I just on it louder and really listen to this songs.
~lyrics~
When you're burdened down and it seems like the weight of the world's on your shoulder,
don't despair, God really cares
When you've done your best and it seems like you've done nothing at all,
don't give up, God won't let you fall
When it seems like all hope is gone
Remember God is still on the throne
And He will deliver
On Time
On Time
When your bills are due and your money is gone, and it seems like you can't make it alone,
don't despair, cause God really cares
When you've done all that you can do and all your plans fail to go through,
don't give up, God is watching over you
When it seems like all hope is gone,
just remember, remember, remember,
God is still on the throne and he will deliver
On time
God will deliver
On time
Oh Oh Oh
God will deliver
Yes He will oh oh
God will deliver
Sure enough deliver
On time
God will deliver
God will deliver
He'll do it everytime
I just like to say to all the non-believers today.
If you have doubt in your mind that God will deliver,
go pick up a bible and read Daniel the 3rd chapter, 25th verse.
When he delivered Shadrach, Meshack and Abendego from the fiery furnace,
don't tell me God won't deliver.
If you don't believe, read John the 11th chapter, 43-44th verse
when he spoke to Lazarus and he stopped out from his grave.
Don't tell me God won't deliver.
You can read on a little further, Mark the 6th chapter, 38-44th verse.
When he took 2 little fish and 5 loaves of bread and fed 5,000
I know He will
I know He will
Yes He will
Yes He will
And those of you out there that's been down on your sick bed
and you know, you know, you know
God healed your body
You ought to be a witness right now that He will heal you,
He will heal you,
He will heal you
Oh oh God will deliver on time,
aint' no doubt in my mind
Yes He will
Yes He will
Yes He will
I've tried Him.
I know what I'm talking about.
Oh yeah, the Lord will deliver on time.
I’m amazed!
I’m just amazed!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
:'-(
I managed to find a new place to move into.
It's Kenny & Fany's house.
They have an empty room.
It's in Taman Paramount.
At first, I was happy to find a room.
I was happy because it's a room with affordable price.
I was happy because I don't have to disturb Jo.
I was happy because I thought at least things will be settled down.
But, today, when I really think of moving into the new room, my heart feels so "heavy".
I picture myself in the new place.
I'm no longer staying alone in a house.
I can't do whatever I want.
There are rules to follow.
Moreover, it's a bit further now.
No longer walking distance to church.
It's a bit off, I'm not sure whether people still kind enough to pick me up.
Most probably, I'll have to drive now.
I'll start to feel it that my things are gone.
It'll be very quite and boring. No computer and radio.
So lonely!
I guess I'm just giving lots of excuses.
I'm just too comfortable staying in Joseph's house.
At least it's a place where I feel HOME.
A place which really looks like HOME, and with family members around.
Feel so reluctant to move out, but I know I have to.
Now, my mind can just think of all the negative things.
Think of how sad I will be after moving to the new place.
But I hope all these will change after I really move.
What Eugene told me the other day keeps popping in my head.
I didn't really agree with what he say and got a bit defensive.
He said I'm pampered! Come to PJ, got a whole house to stay in.
I didn't agree (but I didn't say anything and kept quiet).
Why do you say I'm pampered when I can actually stay back in Butterworth and be so much more comfortable?
Just because I got a whole house to stay in, I'm pampered? How about people who can still stay in a house with their family and never got out from their comfort zone?
It's already hard enough, but why still people say things like this to me?
How much more can I actually take?
I'm now just relying on God, knowing that He will carry me through and relying on my wonderful friends around me.
I keep telling myself to take one thing at a step, everything will be fine.
But deep down, I know I'm just trying to avoid and choose not to face my own emotion.
I know, I'm trying to occupied myself with lots of things and try not to think of it.
I'm just running away.
Everything is just so fake!
I don't know why am I still here? Why am I here?
:'-(
Heavenly Father, I'm lost!
I know You've blessed me with lots of wonderful friends here and a ministry to serve in.
I know I shouldn't be asking anything more.
I know I should have faith that your plan is the best plan and everything has its own timing.
I know I should just trust in You that You'll carry me through and all things happen for good.
But at times, it's just so tough that I really don't know what to do.
Forgive me for questioning why this and why that.
I didn't know how to tell anyone how I feel. I just don't know how to express what I'm going through now.
I know at the end of the day, I still have to go through it.
But Father, I know You are the only who can understand.
Just pray that You'll open my eyes to see the plans that You've for me.
Pray that you'll continue to grant me the strength to go through all these.
I know that everything is possible with You, Lord.
Thank You for all Your great promises that You'll never leave me nor abandon me.
Thank You for not giving up on me as I was such a terrible person and definitely don't deserve Your love, but yet continue to work in me and mould me to be more like You.
Thank You for being there always.
Amen.
It's Kenny & Fany's house.
They have an empty room.
It's in Taman Paramount.
At first, I was happy to find a room.
I was happy because it's a room with affordable price.
I was happy because I don't have to disturb Jo.
I was happy because I thought at least things will be settled down.
But, today, when I really think of moving into the new room, my heart feels so "heavy".
I picture myself in the new place.
I'm no longer staying alone in a house.
I can't do whatever I want.
There are rules to follow.
Moreover, it's a bit further now.
No longer walking distance to church.
It's a bit off, I'm not sure whether people still kind enough to pick me up.
Most probably, I'll have to drive now.
I'll start to feel it that my things are gone.
It'll be very quite and boring. No computer and radio.
So lonely!
I guess I'm just giving lots of excuses.
I'm just too comfortable staying in Joseph's house.
At least it's a place where I feel HOME.
A place which really looks like HOME, and with family members around.
Feel so reluctant to move out, but I know I have to.
Now, my mind can just think of all the negative things.
Think of how sad I will be after moving to the new place.
But I hope all these will change after I really move.
What Eugene told me the other day keeps popping in my head.
I didn't really agree with what he say and got a bit defensive.
He said I'm pampered! Come to PJ, got a whole house to stay in.
I didn't agree (but I didn't say anything and kept quiet).
Why do you say I'm pampered when I can actually stay back in Butterworth and be so much more comfortable?
Just because I got a whole house to stay in, I'm pampered? How about people who can still stay in a house with their family and never got out from their comfort zone?
It's already hard enough, but why still people say things like this to me?
How much more can I actually take?
I'm now just relying on God, knowing that He will carry me through and relying on my wonderful friends around me.
I keep telling myself to take one thing at a step, everything will be fine.
But deep down, I know I'm just trying to avoid and choose not to face my own emotion.
I know, I'm trying to occupied myself with lots of things and try not to think of it.
I'm just running away.
Everything is just so fake!
I don't know why am I still here? Why am I here?
:'-(
Heavenly Father, I'm lost!
I know You've blessed me with lots of wonderful friends here and a ministry to serve in.
I know I shouldn't be asking anything more.
I know I should have faith that your plan is the best plan and everything has its own timing.
I know I should just trust in You that You'll carry me through and all things happen for good.
But at times, it's just so tough that I really don't know what to do.
Forgive me for questioning why this and why that.
I didn't know how to tell anyone how I feel. I just don't know how to express what I'm going through now.
I know at the end of the day, I still have to go through it.
But Father, I know You are the only who can understand.
Just pray that You'll open my eyes to see the plans that You've for me.
Pray that you'll continue to grant me the strength to go through all these.
I know that everything is possible with You, Lord.
Thank You for all Your great promises that You'll never leave me nor abandon me.
Thank You for not giving up on me as I was such a terrible person and definitely don't deserve Your love, but yet continue to work in me and mould me to be more like You.
Thank You for being there always.
Amen.
Friday, April 11, 2008
April Fool
This year April Foold's Day was really fun!!!
This is the first time I actually "kacau" people.
It all started by Joseph Leong.
He woke me up in the middle of the night, around 2am.
He asked me for the house key, reason being Su's car spoilt in the middle of somewhere and he was asking for help.
Jo even asked whether I want to follow him to help Su.
I immediately got up, went to the bathroom to wash my face, got my handbag and walked out the room door.
He was there standing at the staircase waiting for me and....
My hp rang, sms sent by him, saying "April Fool"...!!!
I can't believe that he woke me up just to play this trick on me!
I was deep asleep.
So both of us started laughing and now have to think of the next target.
I called JeeLeng... hehe...
I woke her up in the middle of the night, asked her whether she can't talk or not.
Of course she woke up and started worry.
I sounded very troubled. I told her Jo said something to me.
Then I hung up the phone. (It's all Jo's evil idea!)
After awhile, I called back again. I did the same thing. Sounded very troubled and didn't know how to tell her what happened.
Then, hung up again.
After awhile, I called again. Told her I've something to tell her, it's "April Fool"!
She started shouting and screaming. I'm sure she couldn't believe that we did this to her in the middle of the night too. Hehe...
The worst thing was she actually woke her mum up in the middle of the night too.
She told her mum Vern is sick and asked her to get up and check Vern.
Then she told her it's April Fool.
So terrible!!! Her mum was sick!!! So terrible! =)
Then, I called my brother Andrew.
I told him I was very down and I took a bus back to Butterworth.
I was reaching soon and asked him to fetch me from the bus station.
He woke up.
I hung up the phone.
After awhile, I called back, acted very down, told him no need to fetch me already.
Of course, he kept asking why. I then told him, it's because today is April Fool.
He straight away shouted and couldn't believe that I did this to him. Hahaha...
It was fun!!! =p
This is the first time I actually "kacau" people.
It all started by Joseph Leong.
He woke me up in the middle of the night, around 2am.
He asked me for the house key, reason being Su's car spoilt in the middle of somewhere and he was asking for help.
Jo even asked whether I want to follow him to help Su.
I immediately got up, went to the bathroom to wash my face, got my handbag and walked out the room door.
He was there standing at the staircase waiting for me and....
My hp rang, sms sent by him, saying "April Fool"...!!!
I can't believe that he woke me up just to play this trick on me!
I was deep asleep.
So both of us started laughing and now have to think of the next target.
I called JeeLeng... hehe...
I woke her up in the middle of the night, asked her whether she can't talk or not.
Of course she woke up and started worry.
I sounded very troubled. I told her Jo said something to me.
Then I hung up the phone. (It's all Jo's evil idea!)
After awhile, I called back again. I did the same thing. Sounded very troubled and didn't know how to tell her what happened.
Then, hung up again.
After awhile, I called again. Told her I've something to tell her, it's "April Fool"!
She started shouting and screaming. I'm sure she couldn't believe that we did this to her in the middle of the night too. Hehe...
The worst thing was she actually woke her mum up in the middle of the night too.
She told her mum Vern is sick and asked her to get up and check Vern.
Then she told her it's April Fool.
So terrible!!! Her mum was sick!!! So terrible! =)
Then, I called my brother Andrew.
I told him I was very down and I took a bus back to Butterworth.
I was reaching soon and asked him to fetch me from the bus station.
He woke up.
I hung up the phone.
After awhile, I called back, acted very down, told him no need to fetch me already.
Of course, he kept asking why. I then told him, it's because today is April Fool.
He straight away shouted and couldn't believe that I did this to him. Hahaha...
It was fun!!! =p
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Burglary
Thought everything was fine.
Thought at last I'm out of my depression mood and everything will be fine.
Just wrote a post with the title "Hooray!"
And yet...
Things happened...
My house got broken into last Friday night.
Thank God that I was out watching movie with JeeLeng, Su and Joseph.
Thank God that we continue to hang out in McD after the movie til late midnight.
Can't imagine if I were at home.
Reached home around 1am that day.
Was curious why the light in Eugene's room was on, but it still didn't strike me on what might happened.
When I opened the door, I sensed something was not right.
Normally I double locked, but now it's only locked once.
When I opened the door, I saw keys on the floor, in front of Eugene's room.
His room's door knob was damaged.
Then only I realized what had happened.
Luckily JeeLeng, Su and Joseph were around.
I walked into my room, saw all my clothes on the floor.
The grill door on the ceiling was wide opened.
There were foot prints on the wall and the ladder was lying there.
My room was in a terrible mess.
Look out the living room where I put my laptop, IT'S GONE!
Look on the sofa where I put my camera before I left the house, IT'S GONE!
Look on my bed and saw the Parker pen that my brother gave me before I left for PJ, IT'S GONE!
Look on the mirror table where I put my radio, IT'S GONE!
Look on the table where I keep my precious white gold with diamond cross pendant, IT'S GONE!
My mind went blank, didn't know what to think.
Panic? Frightened? Worry? Confused?
I didn't know what emotion I should put on.
I didn't know what should I feel.
I didn't know what to feel.
I was just lost!
Things lost, heart broken.
But I know it's just material stuff, I can buy it back again.
Anyway, the camera, the radio and the pendant are gifts from "someone".
It's time to just let it go.
As the mandarin saying goes "old things not gone, new ones won't come" :-p
The worst thing is to have no house to stay in anymore.
I really like Eugene's house.
A place where I find comfort in.
A place where I get to have time for myself.
A place where it's so convenient to anything.
Now, IT'S GONE!
I can't stay there anymore.
It's no longer safe. People marked and knew I was staying alone in that house.
My parents are worried.
My friends are worried.
Everyone asked me not to stay in that house.
I know! I know! But where to stay???
It's super not easy to find a new place to stay.
A place where I can find comfort in.
A place where I can have privacy and have time for myself.
A place where it's convenient.
One thing for sure, my Lord will provide!
Just have to be strong and have faith in Him.
At one point, I thought I've lost A LOT and thought I'm down with NOTHING.
But I know I'm TOTALLY WRONG!
I've just lost SO LITTLE.
I still have all my wonderful family and friends around me.
My super dad actually took a bus down straight away on Saturday.
Just to see whether I'm fine.
Then took a bus back to Butterworth on Sunday.
It must be a very tiring journey for him.
Worst still, I didn't really get to spend much time with him.
Feeling guilty...
My mum and all my siblings called and showed concern too.
I was touched when my sister sms me.
She sent me a very encouraging sms and try to comfort me.
I'm really glad that my little sis is so caring and loving.
JeeLeng, who wanted to stay over in my place that night.
Ended up, she went through the whole thing with me.
Being there for me when I needed a shoulder and a hug.
It really meant a lot to me.
Su, who sent me back that night and be the man there.
Helped me to think when my brain was not functioning.
Being my translator to speak to the policeman.
Just being there.
At times, I know I've been very stubborn but I know he's just worried and concern about me.
Joseph, who has been very kind to let me stay over in his place.
The feeling of being "houseless" (he corrected me, instead of saying homeless, should be houseless) is really terrible.
Have anyone experienced that before?
On Sunday afternoon, I was tired, wanted to take a nap.
But yet, driving my car, didn't know where to go.
I can't go back home, or rather Eugene's house.
Driving around...
Thank God for such a kind brother.
I know I've invaded his privacy.
I'm looking for a place to rent aggresively!!!
It's not easy but I'm trying...
Aliza, who has offered her place for me.
Yueen Mun, who called back from Australia to talk to me. She asked me not to take this as a sign to go back to Butterworth. :-)
Yueen San, who has offered me a place to stay too.
Edwin, who is kind enough to spend time with me over KFC, just to tell me that even though I'm from Butterworth but they do care about me and reminded me of things that I need to do.
Uncle Weng Onn and Aunty Mooi Eng, who generously letting me stay in the house.
Weng Soon, Joel, Mun Onn, Peng Chui, Hoonch & others, who called and showed concern.
I'm really glad and thankful...
Thought at last I'm out of my depression mood and everything will be fine.
Just wrote a post with the title "Hooray!"
And yet...
Things happened...
My house got broken into last Friday night.
Thank God that I was out watching movie with JeeLeng, Su and Joseph.
Thank God that we continue to hang out in McD after the movie til late midnight.
Can't imagine if I were at home.
Reached home around 1am that day.
Was curious why the light in Eugene's room was on, but it still didn't strike me on what might happened.
When I opened the door, I sensed something was not right.
Normally I double locked, but now it's only locked once.
When I opened the door, I saw keys on the floor, in front of Eugene's room.
His room's door knob was damaged.
Then only I realized what had happened.
Luckily JeeLeng, Su and Joseph were around.
I walked into my room, saw all my clothes on the floor.
The grill door on the ceiling was wide opened.
There were foot prints on the wall and the ladder was lying there.
My room was in a terrible mess.
Look out the living room where I put my laptop, IT'S GONE!
Look on the sofa where I put my camera before I left the house, IT'S GONE!
Look on my bed and saw the Parker pen that my brother gave me before I left for PJ, IT'S GONE!
Look on the mirror table where I put my radio, IT'S GONE!
Look on the table where I keep my precious white gold with diamond cross pendant, IT'S GONE!
My mind went blank, didn't know what to think.
Panic? Frightened? Worry? Confused?
I didn't know what emotion I should put on.
I didn't know what should I feel.
I didn't know what to feel.
I was just lost!
Things lost, heart broken.
But I know it's just material stuff, I can buy it back again.
Anyway, the camera, the radio and the pendant are gifts from "someone".
It's time to just let it go.
As the mandarin saying goes "old things not gone, new ones won't come" :-p
The worst thing is to have no house to stay in anymore.
I really like Eugene's house.
A place where I find comfort in.
A place where I get to have time for myself.
A place where it's so convenient to anything.
Now, IT'S GONE!
I can't stay there anymore.
It's no longer safe. People marked and knew I was staying alone in that house.
My parents are worried.
My friends are worried.
Everyone asked me not to stay in that house.
I know! I know! But where to stay???
It's super not easy to find a new place to stay.
A place where I can find comfort in.
A place where I can have privacy and have time for myself.
A place where it's convenient.
One thing for sure, my Lord will provide!
Just have to be strong and have faith in Him.
At one point, I thought I've lost A LOT and thought I'm down with NOTHING.
But I know I'm TOTALLY WRONG!
I've just lost SO LITTLE.
I still have all my wonderful family and friends around me.
My super dad actually took a bus down straight away on Saturday.
Just to see whether I'm fine.
Then took a bus back to Butterworth on Sunday.
It must be a very tiring journey for him.
Worst still, I didn't really get to spend much time with him.
Feeling guilty...
My mum and all my siblings called and showed concern too.
I was touched when my sister sms me.
She sent me a very encouraging sms and try to comfort me.
I'm really glad that my little sis is so caring and loving.
JeeLeng, who wanted to stay over in my place that night.
Ended up, she went through the whole thing with me.
Being there for me when I needed a shoulder and a hug.
It really meant a lot to me.
Su, who sent me back that night and be the man there.
Helped me to think when my brain was not functioning.
Being my translator to speak to the policeman.
Just being there.
At times, I know I've been very stubborn but I know he's just worried and concern about me.
Joseph, who has been very kind to let me stay over in his place.
The feeling of being "houseless" (he corrected me, instead of saying homeless, should be houseless) is really terrible.
Have anyone experienced that before?
On Sunday afternoon, I was tired, wanted to take a nap.
But yet, driving my car, didn't know where to go.
I can't go back home, or rather Eugene's house.
Driving around...
Thank God for such a kind brother.
I know I've invaded his privacy.
I'm looking for a place to rent aggresively!!!
It's not easy but I'm trying...
Aliza, who has offered her place for me.
Yueen Mun, who called back from Australia to talk to me. She asked me not to take this as a sign to go back to Butterworth. :-)
Yueen San, who has offered me a place to stay too.
Edwin, who is kind enough to spend time with me over KFC, just to tell me that even though I'm from Butterworth but they do care about me and reminded me of things that I need to do.
Uncle Weng Onn and Aunty Mooi Eng, who generously letting me stay in the house.
Weng Soon, Joel, Mun Onn, Peng Chui, Hoonch & others, who called and showed concern.
I'm really glad and thankful...
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Hooray!
I'm dying to get out of the depression mode for weeks, but I just don't know how. I hate it when I'm in that kind of mood. I don't like myself to be that way. I know friends around me get frustrated to listen to me saying the same thing over and over again too. I myself get frustrated for keep thinking those thoughts too. I'm so sick of myself.
After the trip back home last weekend, I'm feeling so much better and I can say that I'm out of the depression mode. Hooray!!!
I have been telling myself and people around me that I'm giving myself 2 years in PJ to see where God wants to lead me and what He wants me to do.
I got it wrong.
I shouldn't set myself a time limit to let God works in my life.
If God wants me to be in somewhere else, "poof" He'll have His ways, just like how I'm landed in PJ out of a sudden and out of no where.
By giving myself a time limit, I'm afraid to invest my time and effort because if I get too close with people, ended up I'll suffer because of separation again.
So this 2-year limit thing has really restricted me from doing what I can, wholeheartedly.
I'm glad that this trip has really helps me to realize it and re-focus my thoughts. (Thanks to Su who reminded me this important point too =D )
I'll not want to give a time limit for anything, just let it be.
Do my best in everything that I'm doing now and looking forward with a joyful heart to see what will happen tomorrow!
This song composed by us-the Butterworth Gospel Hall young people came up to my mind.
"Don't let your vision here,
Carried away by the emotion,
Try to look back and say,
'What is my life, without you O God'
Always remember what God has for us,
Always remember what God promises us in our life"
After the trip back home last weekend, I'm feeling so much better and I can say that I'm out of the depression mode. Hooray!!!
I have been telling myself and people around me that I'm giving myself 2 years in PJ to see where God wants to lead me and what He wants me to do.
I got it wrong.
I shouldn't set myself a time limit to let God works in my life.
If God wants me to be in somewhere else, "poof" He'll have His ways, just like how I'm landed in PJ out of a sudden and out of no where.
By giving myself a time limit, I'm afraid to invest my time and effort because if I get too close with people, ended up I'll suffer because of separation again.
So this 2-year limit thing has really restricted me from doing what I can, wholeheartedly.
I'm glad that this trip has really helps me to realize it and re-focus my thoughts. (Thanks to Su who reminded me this important point too =D )
I'll not want to give a time limit for anything, just let it be.
Do my best in everything that I'm doing now and looking forward with a joyful heart to see what will happen tomorrow!
This song composed by us-the Butterworth Gospel Hall young people came up to my mind.
"Don't let your vision here,
Carried away by the emotion,
Try to look back and say,
'What is my life, without you O God'
Always remember what God has for us,
Always remember what God promises us in our life"
It hurts
This is really making me crazy. I can't stop thinking of this picture. It just keep coming out in my mind. Worst thing is when I jog, my mind will just start thinking of lots of things and for these past 2 days, this picture has been the main thought.
I wanted to blog this since the very first day, Monday, but I try not to because I'm not sure whether my family will be reading my blog or not. I know sometimes they do. I don't want them to feel bad and I don't want them to know that I'm sad because of that.
This is not the first time. The first time I can still take it and try not to think of it or take it so seriously, but this time, I can't. It's eating into me and I'm really hurt.
I saw a Family Photo WITHOUT ME as my house computer's wallpaper.
Before I left to PJ, the wallpaper was, WAS, a nice picture which I designed and made by putting lots of our family photos together into one. Everyone is in the photo. But now...
It's a photo THEY ("they", not "we"... sounds like I'm an outsider) took during their family trip without me...(why do I emphasize the "without me" again when I already say is "their" family trip) in Cameron Highlands.
I know they might not think as much,
I know they won't know how hurt I feel by seeing that,
I know they probably won't understand what I'm going through and
I know they won't understand how hurt it is.
I wanted to blog this since the very first day, Monday, but I try not to because I'm not sure whether my family will be reading my blog or not. I know sometimes they do. I don't want them to feel bad and I don't want them to know that I'm sad because of that.
This is not the first time. The first time I can still take it and try not to think of it or take it so seriously, but this time, I can't. It's eating into me and I'm really hurt.
I saw a Family Photo WITHOUT ME as my house computer's wallpaper.
Before I left to PJ, the wallpaper was, WAS, a nice picture which I designed and made by putting lots of our family photos together into one. Everyone is in the photo. But now...
It's a photo THEY ("they", not "we"... sounds like I'm an outsider) took during their family trip without me...(why do I emphasize the "without me" again when I already say is "their" family trip) in Cameron Highlands.
I know they might not think as much,
I know they won't know how hurt I feel by seeing that,
I know they probably won't understand what I'm going through and
I know they won't understand how hurt it is.
Monday, March 17, 2008
SMS-es that keeps me going!
These are some SMS-es that I really treasure and I just can't delete it but to keep it in my handphone and I'll keep reading it again and again, especially when I'm down.
14th June 2006 Paik Ing wrote :
Jesus didn't promise that life would be easy, but He did promise to be with you every step of the way. Keep going, He loves you.
27th July 2006 Shin Yi wrote :
It wasn't the nails that kept Jesus on the cross... but His LOVE for you & me. Thank God for His great LOVE!
24th Oct 2006 Andrew Low wrote :
In life... you may not always get what you want or what you need. But you get what you deserve because God always gives you what is BEST!
3rd July 2007 Mummy wrote :
Happy Birthday my dearest daughter. Wish you all the best. We miss you a lot!
2nd Sep 2007 Shin Yi wrote :
Thanks. Really thanks for reminding & encouraging me. Thanks that Lord put me here to have you all as my bro & sis. Thanks ya. I will try my best not to grumble & ask God why this & that happen to me but have faith in Him just as the blind man we learn today. Amy, thanks that you walk along with me, encourgae me in my spiritual life. Thanks. Now outside rain heavily, on the way back to KL be careful ya!
12th Sep 2007 my sis Ann wrote :
I'm sorry. I just now already let dad see through friendster. Dad say your grammar not good but he is very happy when he saw you write he is a super dad.
10th Oct 2007 Weng Soon wrote :
Everything ok?
10th Oct 2007 Aliza wrote :
Sleep well tonight, don't think too much... Will be here for you if you need me... Hugs!
10th Oct 2007 Yueen Mun wrote :
Hey you! No problem-larr... Next time if anything then just ask. As sister in Christ we must look out for each other right? Take care of yourself. Anything just call. have a good day :-)
9th Nov 2007 Kadir wrote :
You will have someone too. Don't have expectations with the man you love, you may face disappointment. Don't anticipate reciprocation for every deeds, you may face hurt. Just be Amy.
15th Nov 2007 Mummy wrote :
TQ. You are the 1st one to greet me. We miss you too.
17th Nov 2007 Andrew Low wrote :
No strength of our own, not goodness we claim; Our trust is all thrown on Jesus name; In this our strong tower for safety we hide; the Lord is our power, the Lord will provide!
8th Dec 2007 my sis Ann wrote :
I miss you so much. Suddenly think of the day we pray together when I pray. Miss you so much... :-(
1st Jan 2008 Joseph wrote :
Bleh. Glad you enjoyed youself :-) By the way, we didn't accompany you, we just hung out. Don't make it sound like you're such a social misfit, by the way you aren't. :-D
5th Jan 2008 Ee Ling wrote :
Amy, I just gave invocation for TLI round 2. Although you are not around, I will always remember, you are the one who brings me up, thanks and happy new year.
8th Jan 2008 Aliza wrote :
I realised what makes bridge fun for me is YOU! Thanks again for the game tonight. Sorry can't join you all for drink, scared my dad might be waiting for me... Night!
12th Jan 2008 my sis Ann wrote :
Thank you. I really need a listener to hear me & you are a good listener. Thank you very much. I hope you'll come back & work as soon as possible. And I hope to see you soon.
28th Jan 2008 my bro Alvin wrote :
Really just an hour can reach here d. Bus still not yet come ma. So sleepy now... Hehe :-) Really thanks for these 2 days... I appreciate yhe time you gave to me and those money that you spent on me... Thanks... I will put whatever advice from you on my career in my decision making for my upcoming job... Hopefully will be soon la... Haha :-) I knew it will be hard for all of us to spend time together as a family once all of us grow up towards our own life so I really appreciate the time we can gather together... Take care too... Hope you will back to Pg soon, I mean career... Haha :-)
18th Feb 2008 Joseph wrote :
Nothing much. Just wondering if you need someone to help take your mind off things :-)
19th Feb 2008 Joseph wrote :
It's okay, just prove them wrong la. :-) You can do! We'll support you, triumph!
21st Feb 2008 L wrote :
Sometimes I really don't know what's wrong with me. Sometimes I wish I'm not going through all these. I don't know whether you feel the same or not. But I still cling on to the hope that this picture that God is painting in my life will 1 day be beautiful. I may not know how long this will last but 1 thing I know is that God was and is and always be beside me & you also. You & I will never fall cause God is there to catch us if we fall.
23rd Feb 2008 Lilian wrote :
Come back to study & concentrate on your exam lah, settle once and for all. Penang is always your home with your family & friends :-)
24th Feb 2008 Kai Loon wrote :
Ok la, do take care of yourself ya! Everything will be over & you'll pull through... my ears & shoulder are always ready to lend you. :-p Be strong my dear friend.
1st March 2008 Shin Yi wrote :
Darling, remember to do your bible study, if not you will be "cham"... whaha... hehe... Your evil darling, Shin Yi
16th March 2008 Lilian wrote :
You are my close friend, my dear. Come back anytime, we are always here for you. Take care.
17th March 2008 my bro Andrew wrote :
The more I think, the more I feel it's not making sense because things just come so coincidently! God 's way is such miraculous! I feel so glad, happy & relieved after talking with you because I've been waiting for the whole week. Really feel great & proud to have you as my sister, someone that could actually encourage me & motivate me as a sister in Christ too! You've always been in my prayer list every night, I'll support your decision no matter what you do because I know you'll glorify God with it. And tell you what, yesterday I bought 2 of Tony's book & I got his signature! Hehe! And he also tell us a very nice story! Take care and stay healthy always! Wala~~!!
14th June 2006 Paik Ing wrote :
Jesus didn't promise that life would be easy, but He did promise to be with you every step of the way. Keep going, He loves you.
27th July 2006 Shin Yi wrote :
It wasn't the nails that kept Jesus on the cross... but His LOVE for you & me. Thank God for His great LOVE!
24th Oct 2006 Andrew Low wrote :
In life... you may not always get what you want or what you need. But you get what you deserve because God always gives you what is BEST!
3rd July 2007 Mummy wrote :
Happy Birthday my dearest daughter. Wish you all the best. We miss you a lot!
2nd Sep 2007 Shin Yi wrote :
Thanks. Really thanks for reminding & encouraging me. Thanks that Lord put me here to have you all as my bro & sis. Thanks ya. I will try my best not to grumble & ask God why this & that happen to me but have faith in Him just as the blind man we learn today. Amy, thanks that you walk along with me, encourgae me in my spiritual life. Thanks. Now outside rain heavily, on the way back to KL be careful ya!
12th Sep 2007 my sis Ann wrote :
I'm sorry. I just now already let dad see through friendster. Dad say your grammar not good but he is very happy when he saw you write he is a super dad.
10th Oct 2007 Weng Soon wrote :
Everything ok?
10th Oct 2007 Aliza wrote :
Sleep well tonight, don't think too much... Will be here for you if you need me... Hugs!
10th Oct 2007 Yueen Mun wrote :
Hey you! No problem-larr... Next time if anything then just ask. As sister in Christ we must look out for each other right? Take care of yourself. Anything just call. have a good day :-)
9th Nov 2007 Kadir wrote :
You will have someone too. Don't have expectations with the man you love, you may face disappointment. Don't anticipate reciprocation for every deeds, you may face hurt. Just be Amy.
15th Nov 2007 Mummy wrote :
TQ. You are the 1st one to greet me. We miss you too.
17th Nov 2007 Andrew Low wrote :
No strength of our own, not goodness we claim; Our trust is all thrown on Jesus name; In this our strong tower for safety we hide; the Lord is our power, the Lord will provide!
8th Dec 2007 my sis Ann wrote :
I miss you so much. Suddenly think of the day we pray together when I pray. Miss you so much... :-(
1st Jan 2008 Joseph wrote :
Bleh. Glad you enjoyed youself :-) By the way, we didn't accompany you, we just hung out. Don't make it sound like you're such a social misfit, by the way you aren't. :-D
5th Jan 2008 Ee Ling wrote :
Amy, I just gave invocation for TLI round 2. Although you are not around, I will always remember, you are the one who brings me up, thanks and happy new year.
8th Jan 2008 Aliza wrote :
I realised what makes bridge fun for me is YOU! Thanks again for the game tonight. Sorry can't join you all for drink, scared my dad might be waiting for me... Night!
12th Jan 2008 my sis Ann wrote :
Thank you. I really need a listener to hear me & you are a good listener. Thank you very much. I hope you'll come back & work as soon as possible. And I hope to see you soon.
28th Jan 2008 my bro Alvin wrote :
Really just an hour can reach here d. Bus still not yet come ma. So sleepy now... Hehe :-) Really thanks for these 2 days... I appreciate yhe time you gave to me and those money that you spent on me... Thanks... I will put whatever advice from you on my career in my decision making for my upcoming job... Hopefully will be soon la... Haha :-) I knew it will be hard for all of us to spend time together as a family once all of us grow up towards our own life so I really appreciate the time we can gather together... Take care too... Hope you will back to Pg soon, I mean career... Haha :-)
18th Feb 2008 Joseph wrote :
Nothing much. Just wondering if you need someone to help take your mind off things :-)
19th Feb 2008 Joseph wrote :
It's okay, just prove them wrong la. :-) You can do! We'll support you, triumph!
21st Feb 2008 L wrote :
Sometimes I really don't know what's wrong with me. Sometimes I wish I'm not going through all these. I don't know whether you feel the same or not. But I still cling on to the hope that this picture that God is painting in my life will 1 day be beautiful. I may not know how long this will last but 1 thing I know is that God was and is and always be beside me & you also. You & I will never fall cause God is there to catch us if we fall.
23rd Feb 2008 Lilian wrote :
Come back to study & concentrate on your exam lah, settle once and for all. Penang is always your home with your family & friends :-)
24th Feb 2008 Kai Loon wrote :
Ok la, do take care of yourself ya! Everything will be over & you'll pull through... my ears & shoulder are always ready to lend you. :-p Be strong my dear friend.
1st March 2008 Shin Yi wrote :
Darling, remember to do your bible study, if not you will be "cham"... whaha... hehe... Your evil darling, Shin Yi
16th March 2008 Lilian wrote :
You are my close friend, my dear. Come back anytime, we are always here for you. Take care.
17th March 2008 my bro Andrew wrote :
The more I think, the more I feel it's not making sense because things just come so coincidently! God 's way is such miraculous! I feel so glad, happy & relieved after talking with you because I've been waiting for the whole week. Really feel great & proud to have you as my sister, someone that could actually encourage me & motivate me as a sister in Christ too! You've always been in my prayer list every night, I'll support your decision no matter what you do because I know you'll glorify God with it. And tell you what, yesterday I bought 2 of Tony's book & I got his signature! Hehe! And he also tell us a very nice story! Take care and stay healthy always! Wala~~!!
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Irritating
A number of my friends always say "someone" is irritating but I don't really agree. To me, he's not irritating. Wait til you see what is really irritating!!!!
I have this new colleagues who is seriously irritating!!!
I don't say this kind of statement often. When I say it, I really mean it!
I mean it's not easy for someone to irritate me, I'm always either blur til I don't know you are irritating me or think you are just joking and I'll find it funny and laugh.
This new colleague of mine really challenges my tolerance level, my patience and my self-control.
I've not done anything nasty to him YET, but I still need a channel to blah things out without being said I'm gossiping.
As usual, we always talk and joke around when we are in office. Of course, we expect to get some "perli" from others too as we "perli" others.
He also likes to perli people. The way he perli people is super different. Normally none of us find it funny, but he'll be laughing very hard himself.
Worst thing is when he thinks something is funny, he'll keep saying the same thing for the whole day!!!! SOooooooOOO annoying!!!
When I hurt my thumb the other day, I don't know why he finds it funny to ask me who I'm thinking of until I hurt myself. So he kept asking me the same question with the trying-to-be-funny look. Aaaaarrrrggggghhhhhhh.......
His favourite phrases are "tau tak pe... hehehe..." and "sepak kau, saber je..."
When we say something to tease him, he'll say his favourite phrase and then laugh.
But.... not the end yet... after 10 minutes later, he'll suddenly walk quietly to your place with his long plastic ruler, then without you knowing it, he'll just hit your arm with the ruler!
It hurts!!!! especially when you don't expect it and he just suddenly come behind you.
From no where and for no reason, he'll hit you with the plastic long ruler.
Aaaarrrrrrgggggghhhhhhh...........
"SABER JE....!!!!!!"
This is called REAL IRRITATING!!!!!!
I have this new colleagues who is seriously irritating!!!
I don't say this kind of statement often. When I say it, I really mean it!
I mean it's not easy for someone to irritate me, I'm always either blur til I don't know you are irritating me or think you are just joking and I'll find it funny and laugh.
This new colleague of mine really challenges my tolerance level, my patience and my self-control.
I've not done anything nasty to him YET, but I still need a channel to blah things out without being said I'm gossiping.
As usual, we always talk and joke around when we are in office. Of course, we expect to get some "perli" from others too as we "perli" others.
He also likes to perli people. The way he perli people is super different. Normally none of us find it funny, but he'll be laughing very hard himself.
Worst thing is when he thinks something is funny, he'll keep saying the same thing for the whole day!!!! SOooooooOOO annoying!!!
When I hurt my thumb the other day, I don't know why he finds it funny to ask me who I'm thinking of until I hurt myself. So he kept asking me the same question with the trying-to-be-funny look. Aaaaarrrrggggghhhhhhh.......
His favourite phrases are "tau tak pe... hehehe..." and "sepak kau, saber je..."
When we say something to tease him, he'll say his favourite phrase and then laugh.
But.... not the end yet... after 10 minutes later, he'll suddenly walk quietly to your place with his long plastic ruler, then without you knowing it, he'll just hit your arm with the ruler!
It hurts!!!! especially when you don't expect it and he just suddenly come behind you.
From no where and for no reason, he'll hit you with the plastic long ruler.
Aaaarrrrrrgggggghhhhhhh...........
"SABER JE....!!!!!!"
This is called REAL IRRITATING!!!!!!
Thursday, March 06, 2008
When God Made You
My friend Aliza has shared with me a song that she's going to sing for her best friend's Adrene on her wedding day.
I find this song lyric really sweet and I really like it.
The song title is When God Made You.
Its always been a mystery to me,
How two hearts can come together,
And love can last forever.
But now that I have found you I believe,
That a miracle has come when God sends the perfect one.
So gone are all my questions about why,
And i've never been so sure of anything in my life
~chorus~
Oh I wonder what God was thinking, when he created you.
I wonder if He knew everything I would need,
Because he made all my dreams come true.
When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.
Ooo ooo,I promise that wherever you may go, wherever life may lead you,
With all my heart I'll be there too.
And from this moment on I want you to know,
I'll let nothing come between us, and I will love the ones you love.
So gone are all my questions about why
Oh I wonder what God was thinking when he created you,
I wonder if He knew everythin I would need,
Because He made all my dreams come true.
When God made you He must've been thinking about me.
Bridge
He made the sun He made the moon,
To harmonize a perfect tune,
One can't do without the other they just have to be together.
And that is how I know its true,
You're for me and i'm for you and my world Just cant be right without you in my life
Chorus
He must have heard every prayer I've been praying
He must've knew everything I would need
When God made you, He must've been thinking about me.
I wonder when will I find this special someone.
I may not know when, I may not know where and I may not know how,
But I know when He does, he'll be the perfect one that God sents for me.
God works in ways we cannot see. I'm always amazed by how He works in my life.
I'm sure when the time is right for Him to reveal the special him for me,
I know I can say those lines in the lyric and mean it too.
He must have heard every prayer I've been praying
He must have knew everything I would need
When God made you, He must have been thinking about me
I find this song lyric really sweet and I really like it.
The song title is When God Made You.
Its always been a mystery to me,
How two hearts can come together,
And love can last forever.
But now that I have found you I believe,
That a miracle has come when God sends the perfect one.
So gone are all my questions about why,
And i've never been so sure of anything in my life
~chorus~
Oh I wonder what God was thinking, when he created you.
I wonder if He knew everything I would need,
Because he made all my dreams come true.
When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.
Ooo ooo,I promise that wherever you may go, wherever life may lead you,
With all my heart I'll be there too.
And from this moment on I want you to know,
I'll let nothing come between us, and I will love the ones you love.
So gone are all my questions about why
Oh I wonder what God was thinking when he created you,
I wonder if He knew everythin I would need,
Because He made all my dreams come true.
When God made you He must've been thinking about me.
Bridge
He made the sun He made the moon,
To harmonize a perfect tune,
One can't do without the other they just have to be together.
And that is how I know its true,
You're for me and i'm for you and my world Just cant be right without you in my life
Chorus
He must have heard every prayer I've been praying
He must've knew everything I would need
When God made you, He must've been thinking about me.
I wonder when will I find this special someone.
I may not know when, I may not know where and I may not know how,
But I know when He does, he'll be the perfect one that God sents for me.
God works in ways we cannot see. I'm always amazed by how He works in my life.
I'm sure when the time is right for Him to reveal the special him for me,
I know I can say those lines in the lyric and mean it too.
He must have heard every prayer I've been praying
He must have knew everything I would need
When God made you, He must have been thinking about me
I'm going home next weekend!
I'm going home next weekend.
I'm going home next weekend.
I'm so looking forward to go home next weekend!!!
I can't explain
Why I feel this way?
Why I feel like going home so badly?
Why when I think of going home my tears will just roll down?
Why I just can't stop thinking of going home?
I really don't know why...
But to think of it, what help can it do to me if I go home?
Will it be like what Su said...
It'll be worst because I'll not want to come back to PJ.
(I know that's what my parents will love to hear from me)
It'll be worst because the feeling of going home will be even stronger.
It'll be worst because I'll lose my focus and carried away by my emotion.
Or will it be like what JLeng said...
It'll be better because it'll at least satisfy my "homesick" feeling for a period of time.
It'll be better because I'll feel refresh after seeing all my family and friends that I long to see.
It'll be better because it'll help me to not think of going home and focus on what I should do.
I'm not sure.
Anyway, I'll just go home and really spend time with all my beloved ones.
I don't want to think of what will happen next.
I don't want to think of what will happen after I come back to PJ again.
May it be worst or better, I know God is in control and His plan is always the best plan.
My role is just to TRUST and OBEY.
Trust that He has a plan for me.
Obey His will for me.
Trust that He will carry me through.
Obey Him as a way of loving him.
I'm going home next weekend.
I'm so looking forward to go home next weekend!!!
I can't explain
Why I feel this way?
Why I feel like going home so badly?
Why when I think of going home my tears will just roll down?
Why I just can't stop thinking of going home?
I really don't know why...
But to think of it, what help can it do to me if I go home?
Will it be like what Su said...
It'll be worst because I'll not want to come back to PJ.
(I know that's what my parents will love to hear from me)
It'll be worst because the feeling of going home will be even stronger.
It'll be worst because I'll lose my focus and carried away by my emotion.
Or will it be like what JLeng said...
It'll be better because it'll at least satisfy my "homesick" feeling for a period of time.
It'll be better because I'll feel refresh after seeing all my family and friends that I long to see.
It'll be better because it'll help me to not think of going home and focus on what I should do.
I'm not sure.
Anyway, I'll just go home and really spend time with all my beloved ones.
I don't want to think of what will happen next.
I don't want to think of what will happen after I come back to PJ again.
May it be worst or better, I know God is in control and His plan is always the best plan.
My role is just to TRUST and OBEY.
Trust that He has a plan for me.
Obey His will for me.
Trust that He will carry me through.
Obey Him as a way of loving him.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Two Calls
Today I received two calls. Two calls that make me think a lot. Haih... what a coincident that I got these 2 calls in a day!
First, my dad called and told me that there's a new 5 star hotel in Kepala Batas, which is just 20-30 minutes drive from my house. It's brand new and they are hiring people now. He gave me the email address and asked me to send in my resume. After I found out more details, they are just hiring for the Head of Department, which is the first batch of pioneer employees. Of course, I'm not there yet to apply for any of the positions. But if I do the calculation, the second batch of employees will be in after 9 months, which mean around next year Jan or so. It will about time when I'm supposed to go home. I gave myself 2 years here in PJ. If nothing happen or other calling, I'll be back in Butterworth.
Just roughly 15 minutes after the first call, my phone rang again.
Second, my friend (Actually I also not sure which category she falls in. Haih... she's my ex-bf's Aunt) from Sheraton called me. This was the second time she called me. I thought she should have blacklisted me because the last time when she called me, I didn't give her any reply. She called again and offered me a job in Sheraton Subang. She kept telling me I'm potential, blah blah blah... trying to make me feel good I guess... coz she hasn't seen me work too, how can she know I can perform? Anyway, that's beside the point. She offered me a higher position with MUCH better pay. The most interesting which really attracts me is that Sheraton is an international chain under Starwood, she says I'll get to travel around. Of course, when I travel I'll get to stay in the hotel, transport, laundry and meals are all provided. That's like my dream comes true! The reason why I like to work in a hotel because I'll get to travel around with all expenses covered! I sort of forgot this dream of mine after working in One World Hotel. I was just too comfortable with my working environment now that I don't mind doing routine work with good colleagues around. But now that she mentioned, if there's a chance of course I'll like to travel!
It's definitely a good offer but I'm not too sure whether it's a right thing for me to do. If it's short term travelling like 2 weeks per trip, I might like it, but if it's long term like 3 months per trip, I'll not want to. Another thing is the point that she can call me out of no where and sounds so desperate also means that she desperately need people because there must be a lot of back log already. Am I prepared to work that hard in a new environment? I guess I'm just too comfortable now that it's hard to make changes.
If I really want to go back to Butterworth, then I shouldn't be considering this job offer because it'll not be nice to be in a new company and quit so soon. If I only have another 10 months in PJ, I'll rather be comfortable and enjoy myself instead of going to a new place, start all over again and make myself suffer for the last few months of my experience in PJ.
But what if I'm to stay in PJ? If I'm to stay in PJ, then I'll not want to stay in One World Hotel because it's not an international chain hotel and it's not paying me well. I'll like to move to hotel like Sheraton to get more exposure and of course to get to travel and stay in different hotels.
The problem now is whether to stay in PJ or go back to Butterworth. I did say that I'm giving myself in PJ for 2 years to learn as much as I can and to experience as much as I can then go back to Buterworth to serve in my own home church, UNLESS I'm stucked with someone here. Hmm... guess this is not happening. Anyway, this is just my own plan. I'm not sure what's God's plan for me and what God has in mind for me. I'm still seeking and I'm still praying for Him to reveal His plan for me. No matter what, I'm to glorify His name and to be a good testimony no matter where I go.
First, my dad called and told me that there's a new 5 star hotel in Kepala Batas, which is just 20-30 minutes drive from my house. It's brand new and they are hiring people now. He gave me the email address and asked me to send in my resume. After I found out more details, they are just hiring for the Head of Department, which is the first batch of pioneer employees. Of course, I'm not there yet to apply for any of the positions. But if I do the calculation, the second batch of employees will be in after 9 months, which mean around next year Jan or so. It will about time when I'm supposed to go home. I gave myself 2 years here in PJ. If nothing happen or other calling, I'll be back in Butterworth.
Just roughly 15 minutes after the first call, my phone rang again.
Second, my friend (Actually I also not sure which category she falls in. Haih... she's my ex-bf's Aunt) from Sheraton called me. This was the second time she called me. I thought she should have blacklisted me because the last time when she called me, I didn't give her any reply. She called again and offered me a job in Sheraton Subang. She kept telling me I'm potential, blah blah blah... trying to make me feel good I guess... coz she hasn't seen me work too, how can she know I can perform? Anyway, that's beside the point. She offered me a higher position with MUCH better pay. The most interesting which really attracts me is that Sheraton is an international chain under Starwood, she says I'll get to travel around. Of course, when I travel I'll get to stay in the hotel, transport, laundry and meals are all provided. That's like my dream comes true! The reason why I like to work in a hotel because I'll get to travel around with all expenses covered! I sort of forgot this dream of mine after working in One World Hotel. I was just too comfortable with my working environment now that I don't mind doing routine work with good colleagues around. But now that she mentioned, if there's a chance of course I'll like to travel!
It's definitely a good offer but I'm not too sure whether it's a right thing for me to do. If it's short term travelling like 2 weeks per trip, I might like it, but if it's long term like 3 months per trip, I'll not want to. Another thing is the point that she can call me out of no where and sounds so desperate also means that she desperately need people because there must be a lot of back log already. Am I prepared to work that hard in a new environment? I guess I'm just too comfortable now that it's hard to make changes.
If I really want to go back to Butterworth, then I shouldn't be considering this job offer because it'll not be nice to be in a new company and quit so soon. If I only have another 10 months in PJ, I'll rather be comfortable and enjoy myself instead of going to a new place, start all over again and make myself suffer for the last few months of my experience in PJ.
But what if I'm to stay in PJ? If I'm to stay in PJ, then I'll not want to stay in One World Hotel because it's not an international chain hotel and it's not paying me well. I'll like to move to hotel like Sheraton to get more exposure and of course to get to travel and stay in different hotels.
The problem now is whether to stay in PJ or go back to Butterworth. I did say that I'm giving myself in PJ for 2 years to learn as much as I can and to experience as much as I can then go back to Buterworth to serve in my own home church, UNLESS I'm stucked with someone here. Hmm... guess this is not happening. Anyway, this is just my own plan. I'm not sure what's God's plan for me and what God has in mind for me. I'm still seeking and I'm still praying for Him to reveal His plan for me. No matter what, I'm to glorify His name and to be a good testimony no matter where I go.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Embarassing
Last week, I accidentally "punched" my thumb using my office BIG hole puncher. I was trying to clean the puncher but I accidentally punched my own thumb. I didn't know the puncher is so sharp that just a light punch like that will hurt so much.
My thumb started bleeding badly. Couldn't stop. I tried using tissue papers to press on it, blood kept flowing out. I tried washed under flowing water (which hurt very badly!!! It's just so painful when you have a cut and put ur wound under water, I was shouting like mad and tears start flowing down) still couldn't stop bleeding. My best friends Umi and Saiful were with me. They were panic too. Tried to think of all ways to stop my thumb from bleeding. Found a plaster and "plastered" my thumb real tight. After awhile, my blood actually flowed out from the plaster. I had to change it. At last, it stopped bleeding.
Ok. That's not the whole point of me writing this yet. The main point is my colleagues started to tell me that I can claim SOCSO. I was not very convinced. How can a cut like this be able to claim SOCSO? But my colleagues sounded so sure about it. The paymaster told me that a lot of the kitchen staff also claim SOCSO when they had a cut on their fingers. They persuaded me to go to HR department to ask. I was persuaded and I actually believed them!!!
So I went to HR department, the HR director and his assistant saw me. Asked me what happened. I dare not straight away tell them I was there to claim SOCSO, but I asked them how seriously only can claim SOCSO.
HR Director's answer was depends on how many days MC you get from the doctor. Hahaha... It must be that serious til you get MC from doctor and a letter from the doctor. I started laughing. My HR director asked what's my story. I was so shy and my face automatically turned burning red. I told him I punched my thumb. He then started laughing too... and of course, he shook his head.
Haih... When I walked back to my office, they started laughing and said I'm so innocence! What to do, I was bullied... It's embarassing, but I'll definitely remember this! I'm sure all my colleagues including the HR Director will remember this too. =p
My thumb started bleeding badly. Couldn't stop. I tried using tissue papers to press on it, blood kept flowing out. I tried washed under flowing water (which hurt very badly!!! It's just so painful when you have a cut and put ur wound under water, I was shouting like mad and tears start flowing down) still couldn't stop bleeding. My best friends Umi and Saiful were with me. They were panic too. Tried to think of all ways to stop my thumb from bleeding. Found a plaster and "plastered" my thumb real tight. After awhile, my blood actually flowed out from the plaster. I had to change it. At last, it stopped bleeding.
Ok. That's not the whole point of me writing this yet. The main point is my colleagues started to tell me that I can claim SOCSO. I was not very convinced. How can a cut like this be able to claim SOCSO? But my colleagues sounded so sure about it. The paymaster told me that a lot of the kitchen staff also claim SOCSO when they had a cut on their fingers. They persuaded me to go to HR department to ask. I was persuaded and I actually believed them!!!
So I went to HR department, the HR director and his assistant saw me. Asked me what happened. I dare not straight away tell them I was there to claim SOCSO, but I asked them how seriously only can claim SOCSO.
HR Director's answer was depends on how many days MC you get from the doctor. Hahaha... It must be that serious til you get MC from doctor and a letter from the doctor. I started laughing. My HR director asked what's my story. I was so shy and my face automatically turned burning red. I told him I punched my thumb. He then started laughing too... and of course, he shook his head.
Haih... When I walked back to my office, they started laughing and said I'm so innocence! What to do, I was bullied... It's embarassing, but I'll definitely remember this! I'm sure all my colleagues including the HR Director will remember this too. =p
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Think about his love
Think about his love
Think about his goodness
Think about his grace
That's brought us through
For as high as the heavens above
So great is the measure of our Father's love
Great is the measure of our Father's love
How could I forget his love?
How could I forget his mercy?
He satisfies, He satisfies
He satisfies my desires
Even when I've strayed away
His love has sought me out and found me
He satisfies, He satisfies
He satisfies my desires
Think about his goodness
Think about his grace
That's brought us through
For as high as the heavens above
So great is the measure of our Father's love
Great is the measure of our Father's love
How could I forget his love?
How could I forget his mercy?
He satisfies, He satisfies
He satisfies my desires
Even when I've strayed away
His love has sought me out and found me
He satisfies, He satisfies
He satisfies my desires
Monday, February 25, 2008
Strange
Yesterday, Sunday morning, during worship.... strange thing happened.
I was sitting at the last row of the left wing. I can see almost the whole concregation from my seat. Looking straight in front, I saw..... Aunty Theresa, Aunty Nancy, Aunty Im See, Uncle Ah Heng, Uncle Johnny, Aunty Lei Suat, Sherlynn, Eunice, Celeste and etc... All my Butterworth Gospel Hall members. I saw them worshipping together with me. Just like back in Butterworth.
I feel like I'm in Butterworth Gospel Hall. I feel like time has turned back to the time before I came to PJ. Everything is back to "normal", back to the familiar place that I was in. It's like I was never in PJ. My mind was thinking of what to do in YP later. I was thinking of after having lunch with my family in Embassador, one of our usual lunch places after church, I want to ask my friends, Lilian, Ee Liang, Christopher, Peng Yew, Clement, Johnson, Jessica and Pala out for a drink.
My eyes just became blurer and blurer, tears started to flood my eyes. I rubbed my eyes and.... I'm back to The Life Chapel in PJ....
I was sitting at the last row of the left wing. I can see almost the whole concregation from my seat. Looking straight in front, I saw..... Aunty Theresa, Aunty Nancy, Aunty Im See, Uncle Ah Heng, Uncle Johnny, Aunty Lei Suat, Sherlynn, Eunice, Celeste and etc... All my Butterworth Gospel Hall members. I saw them worshipping together with me. Just like back in Butterworth.
I feel like I'm in Butterworth Gospel Hall. I feel like time has turned back to the time before I came to PJ. Everything is back to "normal", back to the familiar place that I was in. It's like I was never in PJ. My mind was thinking of what to do in YP later. I was thinking of after having lunch with my family in Embassador, one of our usual lunch places after church, I want to ask my friends, Lilian, Ee Liang, Christopher, Peng Yew, Clement, Johnson, Jessica and Pala out for a drink.
My eyes just became blurer and blurer, tears started to flood my eyes. I rubbed my eyes and.... I'm back to The Life Chapel in PJ....
Amazed
Last Saturday, I was really amazed by how wonderful God is.
I finished work late due to a so-called training where my boss just read from the Stephen Covey book.
To add on to that, I have to finish my work AND cut the name tags using the office cutter =p
I rushed back home and reached home around 1.30pm. I realized that I won't be able to finish the name tags if I were to do it by myself. I called San and Su Ming over to help me.
Out of no where, I heard my neighbour Aunty Maggie called me. I walked out and she asked whether I had my lunch already. Actually I also forgot that I still haven't had lunch. I was a bit reluctant at first but she insisted to give me lunch. She asked me to wait for 15 minutes and she will call me again.
After 15 minutes, she handed me a plate of rice with 5 big prawns, eggs and some chicken with seaweed. She purposely re-fried the prawns and chicken again so that it's hot. I was so grateful. (By the way, I found out the next day that the chicken with seaweed thing is from Singapore, it's really delicious!)
God knows that I have no time to get lunch and he provided me good lunch. Some people might think it's just coincident. As long as we trust in Him and has the right attitude in mind, God will provide. He has never failed us and He will not fail us. It's just so wonderful to see how God works in different ways.
I finished work late due to a so-called training where my boss just read from the Stephen Covey book.
To add on to that, I have to finish my work AND cut the name tags using the office cutter =p
I rushed back home and reached home around 1.30pm. I realized that I won't be able to finish the name tags if I were to do it by myself. I called San and Su Ming over to help me.
Out of no where, I heard my neighbour Aunty Maggie called me. I walked out and she asked whether I had my lunch already. Actually I also forgot that I still haven't had lunch. I was a bit reluctant at first but she insisted to give me lunch. She asked me to wait for 15 minutes and she will call me again.
After 15 minutes, she handed me a plate of rice with 5 big prawns, eggs and some chicken with seaweed. She purposely re-fried the prawns and chicken again so that it's hot. I was so grateful. (By the way, I found out the next day that the chicken with seaweed thing is from Singapore, it's really delicious!)
God knows that I have no time to get lunch and he provided me good lunch. Some people might think it's just coincident. As long as we trust in Him and has the right attitude in mind, God will provide. He has never failed us and He will not fail us. It's just so wonderful to see how God works in different ways.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Give up
There are times when I just feel like giving up.
There are times when I just feel like throwing a resignation letter without notice, pack all my stuff into the car, drive myself back to Butterworth and just stay at home without doing anything. Not answering any phone calls, nor seeing anyone.
Just give up!
NOW it is THE time that I feel that way.
There are times when I just feel like throwing a resignation letter without notice, pack all my stuff into the car, drive myself back to Butterworth and just stay at home without doing anything. Not answering any phone calls, nor seeing anyone.
Just give up!
NOW it is THE time that I feel that way.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Chinese New Year
This year's CNY I was very excited. Maybe it's because it has been quite awhile since I last went home. Not mistaken end of Nov when my sis Ann got baptised.
I started packing after work on Monday. I didn't go out even though my friends asked me out for supper. I just stayed at home and packed my stuff with a very relax and joyful mood. :-)
Tuesday, Yueen Mun, Jee Leng and Joseph came to have lunch with me around 1.30pm. We went to Yoshinoya. Yueen Mun was going to leave for her studies on Thursday which I won't be seeing her after this, so we chat for quite awhile. I was quite impressed and glad to hear what she told me. She has definitely grown up a lot. She's still young and still lots to learn but with her right mind and attitude, I'm sure she'll be fine. I really thank God for her. Although I didn't really spend lots of time with her, to have her as my prayer friend every Wednesday was just great. She's a very thoughtful and caring person. Still remember during my exam time, I was really touched by her prayer for me. I'll continue to pray that she'll be able to find her place in Australia, to focus on her studies, to shine among her friends, to serve in her own ways and to live out God's purpose for her.
After a chat, we went to take photos together. It's quite funny to have the "tiang" thing in the middle and we have to post around it. Now to think back, I can still laugh... haha... We designed the photos til I almost forgot that I'm actually working. =p I went back to office around 3.15pm. Finished up my work and clocked out at 3.30pm. I drove back to my aunt's house, transferred my stuff into her car and prepared to leave. Unfortunately.... I fell down when I walked into their house. That's my first Angpow of the year. I got bruises on my feet, my knee, my waist and a cut on my elbow. Haih... Why am I always so clumsy?
I enjoyed having a ride with my aunt's family. They are all funny people. My uncle Edmund, my aunt, my cousin brother Marc and Thad and my cousin sister Sarah. We laughed all the way til we reached Butterworth. Luckily the traffic was still not that bad as we left earlier before people finished work and start heading the road. It took us 4 and a half hour to reach Butterworth.
We went for dinner together with my family in one of my favourite restaurant "Ong Lai". I ate my favourite Salad Prawn. Yummy... so long didn't eat already. :-)
Wednesday morning, I woke up early to go to the saloon. I seriously needed a hair cut. I thought it was supposed to be RM10x2=RM20 but it ended up RM15x2=RM30. Anyway, it's the CNY price and I can't complain about it. Who ask me to cut hair at this kind of time? Anyway, i'm quite happy with this hair cut. No complains...
My family and I went to the Big A Cafe which my brother is now working in. He's the main chef in this new cafe and he's in-charge of the whole kitchen, from purchasing to preparing timetable for all his manning in kitchen, from cooking to thinking of new recipes and new menus. I tried the Ham Omelette and I was impressed by his cooking. It's just a simple omelette but yet it taste very nice. I'm very proud of him. At least now he knows what he's doing and he's doing what he wants to do.
Went back home to clean my wardrobe. Took out all the clothes and "filter" through it. I realized there are still so many clothes that I wore since Form 1 that I still keep and I can still wear. I realized that I have more than enough clothes. I still have so many clothes that I can never finish wearing it. I have decided not to buy clothes for this year unless necessary.
We then went to my grandma's house to prepare for our yearly reunion steamboat dinner. It's always "amazed" to see how scary my family eat. This year we added another table, so it's a longer table now with more dishes on it. I like steamboat with tomyam. This year, my uncle video cam the whole reunion dinner. My uncle will be going to China with my grandparents. They will be going back to visit my grandparents' relatives. They want to bring back all these videos to show them about our family and our life here. Video cam the reunion dinner... funny but it was fun.
As usual, every CNY eve there'll be this live TV show from China. Their performances are always nice to watch. All of us will be sitting in front of the TV to watch it together until 12 and to countdown together.
My grandpa will be the first one to give us Angpow once the clock struck 12. The tradition says that this first Angpow, which normally given by the eldest person in the family (in my case, my grandpa) on the CNY eve and we are not supposed to open the Angpow but put it under the pillow to sleep on it. I'm not sure what's the story behind but this is what they told me since very young.
This year CNY eve nobody was playing cards. All of us stand at the porch and had a great chat. I think this is more meaningful than to play cards or gamble. It's not easy for a family to gather together like this. It's definitely better to chat and laugh together. :-) I really enjoyed my CNY eve this year.
I started packing after work on Monday. I didn't go out even though my friends asked me out for supper. I just stayed at home and packed my stuff with a very relax and joyful mood. :-)
Tuesday, Yueen Mun, Jee Leng and Joseph came to have lunch with me around 1.30pm. We went to Yoshinoya. Yueen Mun was going to leave for her studies on Thursday which I won't be seeing her after this, so we chat for quite awhile. I was quite impressed and glad to hear what she told me. She has definitely grown up a lot. She's still young and still lots to learn but with her right mind and attitude, I'm sure she'll be fine. I really thank God for her. Although I didn't really spend lots of time with her, to have her as my prayer friend every Wednesday was just great. She's a very thoughtful and caring person. Still remember during my exam time, I was really touched by her prayer for me. I'll continue to pray that she'll be able to find her place in Australia, to focus on her studies, to shine among her friends, to serve in her own ways and to live out God's purpose for her.
After a chat, we went to take photos together. It's quite funny to have the "tiang" thing in the middle and we have to post around it. Now to think back, I can still laugh... haha... We designed the photos til I almost forgot that I'm actually working. =p I went back to office around 3.15pm. Finished up my work and clocked out at 3.30pm. I drove back to my aunt's house, transferred my stuff into her car and prepared to leave. Unfortunately.... I fell down when I walked into their house. That's my first Angpow of the year. I got bruises on my feet, my knee, my waist and a cut on my elbow. Haih... Why am I always so clumsy?
I enjoyed having a ride with my aunt's family. They are all funny people. My uncle Edmund, my aunt, my cousin brother Marc and Thad and my cousin sister Sarah. We laughed all the way til we reached Butterworth. Luckily the traffic was still not that bad as we left earlier before people finished work and start heading the road. It took us 4 and a half hour to reach Butterworth.
We went for dinner together with my family in one of my favourite restaurant "Ong Lai". I ate my favourite Salad Prawn. Yummy... so long didn't eat already. :-)
Wednesday morning, I woke up early to go to the saloon. I seriously needed a hair cut. I thought it was supposed to be RM10x2=RM20 but it ended up RM15x2=RM30. Anyway, it's the CNY price and I can't complain about it. Who ask me to cut hair at this kind of time? Anyway, i'm quite happy with this hair cut. No complains...
My family and I went to the Big A Cafe which my brother is now working in. He's the main chef in this new cafe and he's in-charge of the whole kitchen, from purchasing to preparing timetable for all his manning in kitchen, from cooking to thinking of new recipes and new menus. I tried the Ham Omelette and I was impressed by his cooking. It's just a simple omelette but yet it taste very nice. I'm very proud of him. At least now he knows what he's doing and he's doing what he wants to do.
Went back home to clean my wardrobe. Took out all the clothes and "filter" through it. I realized there are still so many clothes that I wore since Form 1 that I still keep and I can still wear. I realized that I have more than enough clothes. I still have so many clothes that I can never finish wearing it. I have decided not to buy clothes for this year unless necessary.
We then went to my grandma's house to prepare for our yearly reunion steamboat dinner. It's always "amazed" to see how scary my family eat. This year we added another table, so it's a longer table now with more dishes on it. I like steamboat with tomyam. This year, my uncle video cam the whole reunion dinner. My uncle will be going to China with my grandparents. They will be going back to visit my grandparents' relatives. They want to bring back all these videos to show them about our family and our life here. Video cam the reunion dinner... funny but it was fun.
As usual, every CNY eve there'll be this live TV show from China. Their performances are always nice to watch. All of us will be sitting in front of the TV to watch it together until 12 and to countdown together.
My grandpa will be the first one to give us Angpow once the clock struck 12. The tradition says that this first Angpow, which normally given by the eldest person in the family (in my case, my grandpa) on the CNY eve and we are not supposed to open the Angpow but put it under the pillow to sleep on it. I'm not sure what's the story behind but this is what they told me since very young.
This year CNY eve nobody was playing cards. All of us stand at the porch and had a great chat. I think this is more meaningful than to play cards or gamble. It's not easy for a family to gather together like this. It's definitely better to chat and laugh together. :-) I really enjoyed my CNY eve this year.
Thursday, First day of CNY. We woke up late as per tradition =p, woke up around 12noon. Wore our new clothes and go find all the gold jewellery that my grandma gave. We only get to wear gold jewellery once a year. Got ready everything and we went to grandma's house which is just 15minutes drive away.
Had lunch. I really love my grandma's cooking. Even though this year most of the dishes my uncle cooked while she "instructed", it's still my grandma's cooking. I really appreciate that my uncle actually willing to learn and cook for us. My grandma is not feeling well and has been weak lately. She can't remember things.
In the afternoon, I taught my cousins "bridge". They enjoyed the game. :-) It's much better than letting them join the adult in gambling. I guess I did something great this year by teaching them "bridge".. haha... (trying to justify myself =p)
At night, we had pot luck. Every family has to bring or cook a dish. We started this practise 2 years ago as my grandma can't cook for so many of us anymore. Every family will try their very best to cook their best dish for everyone. Yummy! After dinner, continue "bridging". I didn't really play because I taught them and they are more than 4 of us.
Friday, 2nd day of CNY. As usual, we woke up late. Mum already planned to leave the house by 11am, but it's just impossible because we can only wake up by 11.30am. :-) We went over to Island to my mum's side. My maternal grandma is already 82 years old and she's still looking strong. She's still as humourous as she always is. We had lunch there, chat for awhile and then went to 2 other aunties' house. We can only sat and chat for awhile as we had to rush back for the BBQ. Of course we collected all the angpow before leaving.. hehe...
Evening, went back to my paternal grandma's house to have BBQ dinner. This is our custom since long long time ago, I can't even remember when we didn't have BBQ for the 2nd day of CNY. All these while we had this because my grandma doesn't need to call. Everyone will have to cook for themselves if they want to eat. Since the pit is not very big and can't afford to have 30 over people standing around it, normally each family will send a representative to BBQ the food for us. :-) This year, my dad was the one!
Since my grandparents and my uncle is going back to China to visit some relatives, we decided to take a simple family photo. The last one we took in the studio was 1995. This year, using our own camera, in front of the house, wearing shorts and slippers, we took our family photo. Every one was around! It's quite a big difference from the last family photo we took in 1995. Our family has expanded quite a lot, not only in numbers but also in SIZE!!!
I rushed out to yum-cha with my 2 best buddies. I fetched them and we went to a new cafe called Sundays Cafe. It has been quite a long while that 3 of us get together. We were close friends since Form 2 and they will always be my close friends. Some friends, you don't have to see each other often, but you know that deep in our heart, we have a very important place for one another. Sometimes, you don't have to so much, you just need to listen to their voice or look into their eyes and it says ALL. We took quite a lot of photos too.. hehe.. 3 of us also like to take photos a lot. :-)
Saturday, 3rd of CNY. I have to pack my stuff again, not only my stuff but also my emotion to go back to PJ. It's always hard to say goodbye with my family, especially to look into my parents' eyes. I can see their concern and their love for me through their eyes every time we say goodbye. It's tough. Every time I have to control myself not to cry.
Luckily we chose to come back on Sat. The traffic was clear. We reached PJ in 4 hours time, which means I can still make it to Uncle Weng Oon's house for dinner and to see the Lion Dance performance. I had lots of steamboat. I got to play with Emilyn and Ervin. Even though I was quite bored after that. Nothing to do or rather don't know what to do, but I just don't feel like going home. Uncle Weng Oon's house is the place where I feel home. I always like to go to their house, it makes me feel home, a very warm place.
Sunday, after church, I met Chor Yan. She came to Life Chapel. She's just married end of Jan and she's only 25. After that, I went to Dim Sum with church friends. The same place in DJ. I don't like the place. I think the Dim Sum is really horrible, but I have to follow majority.
After brunch, Aliza, Mun On and Kok Chong came over to my house to play bridge. It was really fun. I really like playing bridge with them. I had lots of fun, laughed a lot. :-) We not only played, but also talked and shared stories, which makes it so much fun!!!!
At night, I went to Jo's house for steamboat dinner again. Aliza and I bought the Tomyam and we enjoyed the steamboat soup with Tomyam.
I enjoyed my CNY this year. Had lots of food and fun. It's just so nice to get have holiday and just relax and have fellowship with people whom I love and care. Too bad, good time is always short. I have to go back to work!! Lots of work piling up!! That's the consequence of having long (not really long actually) holiday.
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Have you noticed that?
Have you noticed that?
When you spent a lot of time with someone, may it be your partner, your family members or your good friends, you tend to become more and more like the other person. The way they talk, the phrases they use, the small little action they do and their habits. You just start to behave more and more like the other person.
I don't get it, how come?
Lately, I realized I have been becoming more and more like someone. I'm using the phrases that the "someone" uses, I'm saying lines that the "someone" always says and I'm doing the little action that the "someone" always does. I don't understand why. It's quite scary actually! I did all that without me knowing it. I only realized it after I have done it or I have said it. When I realized it, it's kind of weird!!! I start to question why? Why do I do that? I don't normally do that or rather I don't do that at all before this. Why do I become like another person? Why can't I just say my own lines, use my own phrases and do my own actions? Why is it seems to be so normal and natural that I'm saying and doing things like another person?
I guess no matter who it is, as long as you spent a lot of time with them, you will eventually become like them even without you realizing it! That's why it's very important to spend time with God so that we can become more and more like Him!
When you spent a lot of time with someone, may it be your partner, your family members or your good friends, you tend to become more and more like the other person. The way they talk, the phrases they use, the small little action they do and their habits. You just start to behave more and more like the other person.
I don't get it, how come?
Lately, I realized I have been becoming more and more like someone. I'm using the phrases that the "someone" uses, I'm saying lines that the "someone" always says and I'm doing the little action that the "someone" always does. I don't understand why. It's quite scary actually! I did all that without me knowing it. I only realized it after I have done it or I have said it. When I realized it, it's kind of weird!!! I start to question why? Why do I do that? I don't normally do that or rather I don't do that at all before this. Why do I become like another person? Why can't I just say my own lines, use my own phrases and do my own actions? Why is it seems to be so normal and natural that I'm saying and doing things like another person?
I guess no matter who it is, as long as you spent a lot of time with them, you will eventually become like them even without you realizing it! That's why it's very important to spend time with God so that we can become more and more like Him!
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